So she has no stopped showing her hours on and off
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Wanna know what this means? It means she was online and saw everything I said to her. Oh and she didn't even send a message asking what was going or anything. No she just stops showing her times because I caught her lying twice. Actually more then twice but sending/providing evidence? Never. I'm nothing but nice to her and this is what I get? Her lying about shit?
She told me she would try her hardest to be a good friend. That kindness ended on Thursday. She didn't ask how I was like she used to. So Friday in turn she lied and guess what? That hurts my feelings. I feel abandoned. I thought she cared. I'm supposed to be her first friend. But I'm pretty sure thats a way of using me. I'm trying to be nice. Also I just want to say that shes lied about other stuff too. She said she would read my books when I first started and vote. She never did. She votes if I tag her.
I read her stuff and gave her support! Why should I, in turn not get her support. Yeah you have insomnia but so what? Your lying about the sleep times. You go to bed at 10 sharp and I see you reading shit at 4. It pisses me off. Did you forget that a lot of people abandoned me? Didn't you fucking forget what you saw me go through in 7th grade with former friends? Did you forget that I didn't talk to anyone some days because I didn't feel like myself? Oh right you fucking got upset when I didn't talk.
But hiw could I forget you have short term memory loss. At this point your Fucking Dory. If you have short term memory loss how coukd you remember a old ass roleplay from A YEAR AGO but not something that happened last week?
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When I said this book was for rands, I wasnt kidding. Yes I've been writing this shit for a long time now. Do you want to know what I want?
Not a broken friendship But the truth No lies about your life, No over exaggerations about what happened that day, Nor any crazy stories you want to tell me, Just the truth, I can take it believe it or not If you want to stop talking to be then say that, Dont hide from a problem you caused, That makes you seem weak, I know you arent but to everyone else reading it does, Stop hiding the minutes, Hours, Days, Weeks, And months We can talk but only if you take the first step, If you want to stop being my friend just know, That my body will be hanging because of you
And thats what we call manipulation. We can do things to make others stay. I've watched commentators for the past few months now and they talk about how certain people are manipulating they're audience, the different methods they use to keep them to stay or believe they're side of things, like they arent guilty. Right then I used manipulation. I used to do that in elementary school to get people to date me and give me what I want. But theres always something you need to give in return. In return of me using someone, they come back and follow me begging for me to take them back, giving me gifts and showering me in compliments. This happened in 5th grade to me with a boy named Walker. I used him to get what he had.
But that wss the return. Just like with my first real boyfriend. I showered him in love and gave him gifts, at girst the return was him telling me that I could do whatever I wanted to if I put my mind to it and protecting me from his friends. I shared my dream of going to Japan with him and he felt like it would be nice for us in the future to go together and see the cherry blossoms. But in the end it didn't work out and I never git that answer. I know if our relationship was still going to this day I would tell him about everything I go through and how its a struggle.
I'll admit talking about this subject is a struggle to stay strong and not cry. Today is a day where I don't want to eat or get out of bed. But I have to force myself to in fear of disappointing others around me. I dknt have a safe honestly. My posts on my main account yesterday are the truth. I didn't announce them so if others cared they would find it and think about it themselves.
But to end this all if you would like to tag my friend and you know her @ then go ahead, let her see how I feel about this matter. Let her see how petty she thinks I'm being. Cuss me out for being a bitch, everyone. I know you want to after the pettiness of my other post and this one. Goodbye
