Your words hurt (Depressed/Suicidal Deku)

Chapter 3

Deku's POV:

Today is Kacchan's birthday. I got up earlier than usual. I got dressed and walked to school. When I got there nobody was there yet so I walked to class and wrote a letter to Kacchan.

' Dear Kacchan

I don't know why you hate me as much as you do but I 've always loved you with my whole body,mind, heart and soul. So I decided that for your birthday I will give you what you've always wanted. Just remember...

I love you

I really am a DEKU'

After I wrote the letter I placed it on his desk .I stood up and walked to the roof top. I stepped onto the ledge and staired down. I turned around and stepped back. I was falling till everything went black.

Bakugo's POV:

I woke up this morning with a strange pain in my heart. I decided to ignore it completely and push it down. I got ready for school and left. When I got to school there where police and an ambulance and students were crowded around something. I decided to check out what is happening, I somehow managed to push my way through the crowd of students and when I got to the front I couldn't believe what I was seeing I fell to my knees and started crying. There layed Deku's lifeless body in a pool of blood. Cuts covered both his arms. I never knew he cutted.I then heard someone call for a Kacchan and I looked up and saw a student holding a letter. I said "That's me" they walked towards me and gave me the letter. I looked down and saw Deku's writing, immediately there was a sting in my chest. I opened the letter to only break down of what was written inside.

~inside the letter~

'Dear Kacchan

I don't know why you hate me as much as you do but I 've always loved you with my whole body, mind, heart and soul. So I dicided that for your birthday I will give you what you've always wanted. Just remember...

I love you

I really am a DEKU'

I pulled the letter to my chest and cried. I never wanted this to happen, this wasn't supposed to happen. Why? Why did it happen? Then it came to me. All the times I called him worthless, fat and dumb. All the times I told him to kill himself. I never thought that he would actually do it. I never really meant anything I said. But now it's too late to say that.

A few days after the death of Deku a funeral was held. I still can't believe he commited suicide. I... I never wanted this. After his funeral the school was so dull and lifeless. Everyone missed him... I-I missed him...

>>Time skip after a 1 year<<

Bakugo's POV:

Today is my birthday and it is also the day Deku commited suicide. After that day I always felt so empty ,sad and as if my life has no more colour. I don't celebrate my birthday anymore. Every year on my birthday I go to Deku's grave and sit there crying the whole day and talk to him saying how sorry I am over and over again. But I know sorry won't bring him back and it won't change everything I've done to him. I just wish I never did those things. I regret everything I did to him, he never deserved being treated like that. I don't even know why I did those things. I was stupid ,mad at the world and took it out on him, but he never did anything and that made me want to do it more. I was stupid... so stupid. Deku... please... please... please...come back!!

I need you.

I swear to God ,I need you. Please tell me that this isn't real. I lie to myself ,and I ,can't handle it. I thought that I could live with this ,but I didn't know that life without you would be like this.

I'm so so sorry. Please just come back I need you...