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𝒍𝒆𝒆 𝒔𝒆𝒖𝒍𝒓𝒊

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may 18th. the first time i saw you. the first time i met you. you made me believe at 'love at first sight' you were like my knight in shining armor but then i remembered, i already have a boyfriend. he was my first ever boyfriend. he's everything i could ask for. but you were different. you had something in you that i wanna know about. i want to know you more.

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may 24th. the story was starting to get to the cliché part but i don't care. as long as i'm with you. i know i sound like an unloyal girlfriend but whenever i'm with you, i just wanted to do anything for you.

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may 30th. i noticed that you were staring at me. little did you know that i was also staring at you from afar. those soft cheeks, plump lips, cute little eyes. you were my definition of perfection. but i distracted myself to stop doing that because i already have a boyfriend.

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june 9th. that scene. it's like i indirectly confessed to you through my character in the film. everything felt so real. the way you stared at me makes me want to melt like an ice cream. i just wanted you to keep staring at me always but then again, i reminded myself that i have a boyfriend.

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june 12th. i loved the way your skin touches my skin,your uniform brushes mine. it felt so right and wrong at the same time. i wanted to hold your hand but what did i do? i avoided you so that i would be a loyal girlfriend.

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june 18th. it was the last day of shooting. i honestly don't want it to end but it has to end. i noticed that you've been avoiding me. well i deserve it.

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june 19th. the day you confessed to me. i was surprised that we had mutual feelings for each other but the problem is that i have a boyfriend. i want to stay loyal. he was the best boyfriend i could ever wish for. i tried my best to sound really honest with my harsh words. i'm sorry that i hurted your feelings. if only i had the guts to tell everyone how i feel, i would have done it but, i'm weak. i'm sorry for being weak.

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several months have passed and i lost contact with you. until november 9th. serim, one of your friends, gave me a little notebook and he said that it belongs to you. i was about to ask him why he gave it but then he just ran away. i read all the pages. the way you described me makes my knees go weak. even your penmanship looks great as you. you told me that i shouldn't look for you. i thought i would never look for you but then my "best" boyfriend cheated on me. and there you were right, i took you for granted. i knew i had to look for you to apologize but you wouldn't want that right? but me being stubborn i forced your youngest friend, seongmin, to tell me where you are.