Hi guys!! So as most of you know I wrote this a long time ago. I've grown up a lot and met a lot of new people. My crush I was talking about was from a long time ago. I just wanted to point that out.
Anyway, so I'm a bit older now and I have met new guys. It hasn't worked out with them, but I'm still thankful they were in my life.
One in particular I wanted to talk about.
I met him last summer and he was my first date actually. We went on a few dates and everything was going pretty well. I went on vacation and we were fine at the beginning, but then one day out of the blue he stopped talking to me. He didn't talk to me for a few weeks and I finally got a text from him saying he didn't think things were going to work out.
It took me a long time to get over him and I was pretty heartbroken even though it wasn't my first heartbreak. I eventually started to move on and find myself again.
A few months ago I got a text I didn't expect. It was from him. He sent me a big long apology and asked to be friends. I forgive easily, so of course I forgave him and we were friends. Everything was going well and I thought things were getting better.
He asked me to hang out one day and I said yes. Then the next day he was like can we reschedule and I was like yeah that's fine. Then yet again he stopped talking to me. I haven't heard from him since.
I really started to like this guy and it hurt really bad the first time he just disappeared.
I wish things could have worked out between us. He seemed like my ideal type and I just thought he was different from the other guys i've liked.
You live and you learn though.
And to him,
Even if we never speak again, I truly wish you the best. I care a lot about you and I always will. I don't forgive you for the way you treated me. I believed you were different. Thank you for proving that people never change.
I wish I could have told you how I felt about you. I wanted things to work out.
I know you probably will never see this, but I love you. I feel like I always will.
I deserve better though.
Thank you for reading ❤️❤️
I hope you all find your special someone! 💗
