Whispers Of The Past (Province Series #1)

PROLOGUE

"Do you think it's all going to be the same, 5 or 10 years later?" I asked the man beside me.

We were sitting by the beach shore with a glass of wine on our hands. I can feel him staring at me but I didn't manage to look back.

I was looking at the moon while feeling the gentle touch of the wind on my face. My hair danced as soon as the wind became harsher.

Pumikit ako. All I can hear is the sound of the waves crashing on the shore. It was wild yet so calming. 

"Hmm? What do you mean?"

Ramdam kong hindi pa rin niya inaalis ang titig niya sa 'kin. I can sense the softness on his voice. Ingat na ingat. Parang takot makasakit.

Kinuha niya ang kamay ko at saka ito pinaglaruan.

"Us," I bit my lower lip and glanced at him to finally look into his eyes. 

"After 10 years? Do you think everything's going to be the same? Do you think you'll still love me the same?" 

"What made you think that I won't love you the same after 10 years?" He smirked, his eyes look a bit amused pero hindi pa rin niya tinatanggal ang haway sa kamay ko. 

Hindi ako sumagot. Hindi ko rin kasi alam kung bakit ko tinanong 'yun. I just feel so many emotions right now at isa na siguro roon ang takot. Natatakot ako na baka hindi kami ang para sa isa't-isa. Natatakot ako na baka sa simula niya lang ako mahal.

I am afraid of a lot of things, but most all, I am afraid of losing him because I know in my heart that he'll always have me. Takot ako na mawala ang lahat ng ito dahil alam kong kahit mawala ang pagmamahal niya sa'kin sa future, ako sigurado akong mahal ko pa rin siya. Hindi magbabago, hindi mawawala.

Sinipa-sipa ko na lang ang buhangin para pigilan ang sarili sa pag-iisip. I wanted to divert my attention and just enjoy this little moment. I don't want to ruin the night.

"What if.." I pursed my lips. I can feel my tears slowly forming up. My voice was shaking.

The possibility that something will happen in the future that can ruin everything that we ever had feared me.

Nakakatakot, dahil alam kong bata pa kami at marami pang pwedeng mangyari. Ganoon kasi ang mga napapanood ko sa mga movies. Yung mga couples na naghihiwalay pa rin sa dulo kahit sobrang tagal na nila.

I sighed and tried to keep my tears from falling. Fuck, eto na. My anxiety is kicking in. 

"Hey..." He called me again using his soft voice.

Tuluyan nang pumatak ang luha ko nang maramdaman ang mainit na hawak ng kamay niya sa pisngi ko. I saw so much concern in his eyes nang makitang umiiyak ako. 

"Baby..." He leaned closer so he can wipe my tears. I looked away because I was afraid of letting him read my thoughts. Sinubukan niyang habulin ang tingin ko pero pinipilit ko pa rin siyang iwasan.

"Baby, look at me," He held my face with both of his hands. Nanlalambot na 'ko pero ayaw ko pa rin siyang tingnan. "You won't lose me, alright?"

"But-"

"I love you." 

Natigilan ako roon at tuluyan nang napatingin sa kaniya. It was dark but I can clearly see the way his eyes sparkled when he said those three words.