I'm in so much shock that I just get in my car and drive to the S.M building without thinking. I don't really remember getting to the building I just remember walking in an seeing Luhan with the rest of the group, and him looking at me like I'm the only person in room!
I don't know! I like Luhan? Do I like him in the same way he likes me? Yes!!
When I walk up to the rest of the group I automatically go stand in front of Luhan leaning on his chest, like I did yesterday. It take Luhan a while but finally put his hands on my shoulders!
I guess it's not a bad thing. I can't help but like him.
Once everyone gets here one of the people working at SM comes up to us.
"Exo?" The worker asks and a few people nod.
"I'm Mr.Park and I have your dorm list for your roommates" he says and everyone looks around before turning their attention to Mr.Park
"So we have Baekhyun, Chanyeol next Tao, kris then Kia, D.O then Sehun, Chen next Lay, Suho then Xiumin, Luhan..." and so on but after that me and I think I can say safely, Luhan too stopped listening and we just stared at each other but not in a bad way, in a welcoming way!!
Once Mr.Park leaves I start tuning in again. Everyone is going over to the dorms which are across town, till I'm stopped by someone on my way out, when I turn around I'm instantly happy because it's Luhan.
"Hey" he says a little ashamed and looking at the ground
"Hi!!" I say as pick up his head so he is looking at me
"Can I ride with you?" He says making me a little confused because he has his own car but how and why am I going to say no to him.
"Of course, yeah" I say as I get into the car
When I start driving away from the building I notice that Luhan is just looking out the window. I can't go like this if we are going to be roommates so I have to straiten this out now, but yet it has to be low key as to not make him feel cornered.
"So not to be rude but why do you need me to drive you I thought you had your own car" I say turning out on to the road.
"Well that's not my car, it's my mom's she needed it so I gave it to her pulse, I really wanted to talk to you but when I got into the car I just couldn't do it" he says looking at me which is surprising because I'm not even looking at him I'm still looking at the road
"Why not? I'm not scary I won't eat you!" I say wail pulling onto the highway
"I don't know, I didn't want you to think I was strange because I kissed you I was trying to lay off a bit" he says looking back out the widow again
"Ok well I defiantly wouldn't think less of you or think of you in a different way and you probably don't know this, well how would you know this I haven't told anyone before? The point is that I'm gay and don't think less of you for kissing me in fact I mean I was really anxious about this whole thing but that just told me that there is nothing to worry about and the same goes for you too!! Just be open with people and things won't be so bad"I say, managing to get his attention
"Well if I'm the first person you've told then you also would be the first person I've told I'm gay to. I bet you already knew that but I don't even know why I acted that way in the first place, I have never done that before I have always hid my feelings away so no one would find them but, there is just something different about you where I feel I can be open but I don't want to scar you away" He says slowly because I can see it is hard for him to say
"Well maybe it's not a bad thing, I mean, I see that it's hard for you to say it and it's hard for me too, my point is that there's no fight if there is no pain, ya know? I feel the same way there is something different about you, where I'm not scared of the world like I always am. I partly think it's because you make me feel open to myself but also because of how you treat me with respect but yet no different from any other person" I say and know that he is looking at me which makes me happy to see him not looking out the window.
I pull up to the building but this conversation isn't over so I'm not getting out of this car till it is.
"Well if we both feel the same way, then can we give this a try?" He asks looking at his hands that are in his lap.
I look over at him and know that he thinks I'm going to reject him, he is so negative. I put my hand on his and hold it tight.
"I would love that" I say looking at him in the eye
YOU ARE READING
Stronger Because Of You (XiuHan)
De TodoXiumin is a anxious person who doesn't know anyone at S.M but just found out who his other members are going to be, when he finds luhan who let's him express his personality till something changes it all....
