The Girl Who Loved A Beautiful Devil ~Karma AkabaneXReader~

Chapter 24

Warning: (Very)Slight sexual themes(Lime-ish)


Karma was in the shower. I was seated on a chair in his bedroom with a book in my hands but my attention kept flickering back and forth between the locked bathroom door and the pages of my book; I had planned to finish it but I soon found it difficult to do so with the feeling of guilt heavy on my shoulders. Even after Nagisa's attempts to reassure me that I had no fault in Karma's abrupt and shocking hospitalization, I still couldn't truly believe his words. I wanted to... I really did... but I simply just couldn't; the part of me that loved Karma to the deepest extent that was humanly possible absolutely hated myself for not noticing even the slightest changes in his health and behavior.

I hadn't realized that I had been staring listlessly at the same page of the book that I had been on for almost fifteen minutes until I heard the bathroom door open. My head instantly snapped towards the direction of the bathroom to find Karma stepping out of it, wearing nothing but a towel hanging low on his hips. I absentmindedly bit down on my bottom lip as my eyes followed him attentively as he walked over to grab a clean towel from his closet before heading to the the full-length mirror next to the bathroom door.

He dried his wet crimson locks, paying extra attention to the bangs that stuck flatly onto his forehead. Before I knew it, my legs had propelled me forward towards him and my arms wrapped around his bare torso without warning. I felt him tense up vaguely from my abrupt embrace but he relaxed when he realized that it was only me. "(Y/ N)..." he breathed. "Not that I'm complaining or anything but, what are you doing...?"

I rested my cheek flat against his bare back, savoring the feeling of his smooth, warm skin against my cold cheek. "Karma," I mumbled aloud, ignoring his question completely. "I love you..."

I heard Karma let out a faint sigh before he asked, "What's wrong, (Y/ N)?"

He knew me too well...

I breathed in a deep breath and said, "I feel guilty, Karma... I feel guilty that I didn't notice that anything was wrong or different with you while you were taking the medication... I can't stop thinking that if maybe I was more observant, I would've been able to stop you before you had come to the point of collapsing and getting sent to the hospital. I keep-"

Karma had turned around and cut me off before I could finish, making me pull my arms away from him in the process. He took my hands in his and stared me straight in the eyes; his beautiful mercury orbs were burning as vibrantly as ever and captivating me without him even exerting any noticeable effort. "(Y/ N), I love you, you already know that."

I gulped and gave a weak nod in response. He continued. "And that is why you should stop blaming yourself for my mistake. Because it pains me to see how this guilt that was never even yours to deal with, tearing you up inside. I am so, so sorry that I'd done something stupid and it had hurt you and Nagisa-kun and everyone else, I wasn't thinking properly and I'm so sorry for that. But..." he paused; his Adam's apple bobbed vaguely as he swallowed as though it was extremely difficult to get those words out which was probably the case. "If I have to see you suffer everyday with this burden on your shoulders and you constantly blaming yourself for my faults, then I'd have no idea how I'd be able to live with myself much less forgive myself."

I hadn't realized that I had been tearing up until my vision suddenly became blurry and my bottom lip wobbled vaguely; there were no words to describe the whirlwind of emotions that this boy gave me; in his mind, he had so little to give and yet he still chose to give me all that he had while in truth, it was so much more than I could ever ask for.

Without warning, Karma leant down and kissed me; his sweet, sweet lips moving slowly against my own which was still wobbling slightly due to my emotional state. I kissed back without any sense of hesitation, tearing my hands away from Karma's only to take his face in them. When we broke away from the kiss, a few stray tears had already stained my cheeks but I chose to ignore them. My forehead was rested against Karma's and I shut my eyes as I whispered, "Karma, please... please, at least for tonight... please let me love you."