To my lost lover (only if it was real)

The start

September 9,1990
Bills P.O.V.

    Today was like any other Wednesday at Derry High.At lunch, Richie and Eddie were flirting, as per usual. Ben and Bev were all cuddled up with Ben reading a book. Ever since they started dating, she's been more interested in reading and the arts ( mostly fashion). But, the best part is she and Rich stopped smoking. Then, there was Mike, he doesn't hang out with us at lunch most of the time because he's too busy sucking faces with Carole, his girlfriend.As for me, I was tired. Like all lunches,but Stan usually lets me put my head on his shoulder and I fall asleep nice and peacefully until he wakes me up with "Wake up sunshine. It's time to go to 5th.".Today, today was different. He was in the restroom. "Are you okay Bill? You seem tired." Eddie said while he was sitting on Richies lap. He was trying a more punk-ish look for today. It kinda suited him. We all know there dating, They love each other to pieces. Right before I could answer, Stan came back.I immediately scooted close to him and put my sleepy head on his warm, soft shoulder. He put one arm around me and I felt safe and protected in Stan's loving embrace.He intertwined our remaining hands. I know this isn't what Normal Friends do ,but we're Not Normal Friends .We do everything together. Buy hey, let the gay and bi kid have fun ok. I didn't tell anybody, but I scented they knew I liked Stan, a lot. His Smile, his golden brown noodle hair, his neatness, compassion, Humor, His hazel eyes, Just Everything about him. and before I knew it, I was asleep.