In the PM

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3am
3am
3am

At 3am I begin to reminisce
At 3am I begin to cry
At 3am I begin to compare myself to her.

4am
4am
4am

At 4am I fall into hysterics
At 4am I can't stand the sound of my anthems
At 4am I almost run to your house in hopes of who knows what

5am
5am
5am

At 5am, what's a little verbal abuse?
At 5am I cannot breathe
At 5am I am screaming
At 5am no one hears.

6am
6am
6am

At 6am the sun begins to rise
At 6am my worries shoot up with it
At 6am I check the mirror more times than I can count

7am
7am
7am

At 7am I have to brace myself
At 7am I have to seem emotionless
At 7am I cannot look at you.

8am
8am
8am

At 8am I see the two of you intertwined
At 8am I feel sick and tired
At 8am I cannot escape.

9am
10am
11am

At 9am I don't know where you are.
At 10am there is still no sight.
At 11am I could honestly care less.

It is only in the pm that I begin to come in contact with you again

It is only in the pm that I feel as if you do these things purposefully

And it is only in the pm that you will ever cross my mind again

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