As I sat staring at the fire, feeling numb from the heart break I felt not even an hour ago
My fire spit at me and I just stared blankly back at it, I'm drunk, cherry whiskey getting the better of me as I could smell the scent of him coming off the clothes I was burning
My eyes water as memories flashed through my mind "I love you" "marry me" "forever" the sweet nothings that meant nothing anymore. I whimpered as I remembered his hands feeling my body for the last time
Every time I closed my eyes the picture of him holding her flashed through my mind. I hate him. And her.
Kie my best friend and JJ were found behind a bush at the boneyard, apparently the taste of their own drinks wasn't enough because they were kissing so desperately trying to taste the others.
My heart was in my throat as I ripped the ring off my hand
"JJ Maybank, you will be the death of me" I said before tossing it into the water as far as I could and falling to the ground
"You can't die on me" I heard a soft voice behind me and I didn't care enough to turn around
The body sat beside me and wrapped an arm around my shoulder, "John B" I whispered "Why doesn't he love me like I love him"
He hugged me and I sobbed violently, I have always been there for JJ and Kie both but the thanks I get is this, hell no
John shook his head "he's dumb" I laid my head on Johns chest and sighed "I hate myself for thinking we could've lasted forever"
He nodded "it sucks getting your heart broken by someone you thought cared" I stood up and so did he "I can't come around for a while" he shook his head "I told them both to leave, you can come home"
I laid my head on the pillow of John B's couch as I looked out the window at the moon, I could hear Popes light snoring in the back as I fell asleep
The next few days were a blur of nothing I really remembered; sunrise, John B and Pope trying to comfort me, dinner, sleep, repeat.
As I held the stick in my hand and watched two lines appear I couldn't cry, I had no tears left, I walked to the kitchen, nobody's at John B's but me, great
I went to the hammock, staring at the stick in front of my face, what felt like years was soon cut short by "Hello!?" I recognized the voice immediately as Kiara
I sat up as she was on the porch already and she seen me, stood and stared for a minute before walking over and breaking down apologizing
Somehow I accepted her apology, that was the least of my problems right now, she explained how her and JJ's hookup was a drunken mistake, "I have bigger problems then your drunken hookups right now Kie"
I handed her the stick and she went silent as I looked at the water. After observing it closely she handed it back and hugged me, I hugged back, I couldn't stay mad at her, I needed her right now more then ever.
Not long after John B and Pope came in with some small bags of groceries as we were out and they started yelling at Kie to leave before coming to get me
Another week of nothing but blurred memories, except Kie was around now, I seen JJ around town a total of three time and each time he was with a new touron
I went to the hospital alone, the boys know but my small group are the only ones who know, as they gave my ultrasound I could hear the heartbeat and it made me feel sick
I went home that night with the pictures of my bean and showed the others, I made them promise not to tell JJ at the beginning and now they really wanted to show him, I wanted to too but I couldn't
I got a new job at a local store to support the baby as I couldn't bring myself to get rid of it, John B, Pope and Kie promised to help raise it and I was thankful, my bean would have a family
I soon took over John B's extra room as JJ wasn't using it anymore, he tried talking to John B while we were shopping for baby clothes but the convo was cut short by John B losing his temper
I went to bed that night having slight pain in my belly, I had a tiny bump now and could no longer wear tight clothes or bikinis, trying to hide it. I was woke up by a wet feeling in the bed and I shot up feeling around the bed before pulling my hand up and seeing blood
I couldn't move, I was taken over by fear when a sudden sharp pain shot through my belly and I gasped grabbing my belly where the pain was
Two seconds later John B was at my side yelling for Kie and Pope who'd been staying with us as much as possible
Soon I was being picked up and carried to the car, rushing to the hospital, my head on Kies lap as Pope was yelling at John B to go faster from the passenger seat, I was now sweating and tears streamed my face
While laying in the hospital bed feeling more weak then I ever had, my friends surrounded me while the doctor started out with the two most painful words I'd ever heard "I'm sorry"
Why were all these horrible things happening to me, just as I realized what happened a blonde head of hair walked in and looked at my body with drunken eyes, bloodshot and watery, blue orbs
"jj"
