SMILES SMILES SMILES SMILES; HAPPINESS WAS WHO I WAS ; LIFE WAS SIMPLE ; FUN ; ADVENTURES AND EVERYTHING I WISH TO HAVE NOW . I COULDN'T EVEN NOTICE THE PAIN AROUND ME ; EVERYTHING WAS JUST FINE I REMEMBER I USED TO LAUGH AT MYSELF WHEN I FALL ; I USE TO LAUGH AT MY FRIENDS CRYING ; I USE TO LAUGH AT THE DEVIL WITHOUT SEEING HIM ; CRAZY RIGHT ?
I USE TO LAUGH AT MYSELF WHEN I FALL ; BUT NOW THE FALL IS ALWAYS REAL ; IS ALWAYS DEPRESSING WITH NO SOLUTION; WHEN I FALL I HAVE TO PICK MYSELF UP WITHOUT LAUGHING BUT WITH HOPE AND FAITH BECAUSE THE FALL NOW IS DIFFERENT ; WHY ? BECAUSE WHEN I FALL NOW ITS EITHER I LOOSE MY LIFE ; WHICH IS MY DREAMS AND MY GOALS ; I LOOSE EVERYTHING. I USE TO LAUGH AT MY FRIENDS WHEN THEY CRY ; BUT NOW THE CRY IS DIFFERENT THE CRY IS REAL AND TO SOME IT END UP IN THE GRAVE ; BECAUSE THE CRY MEANS THEY ARE NOT HAPPY ; THE CRY IS NOT THE SAME TO THAT "WHEN I WAS YOUNG CRY" THIS ONE IS DEPRESSING ; SUICIDAL ; ITS PAINFUL AND HORRIBLE AND IT'S HARD TO STOP .I USE TO LAUGH AT THE DEVIL WITHOUT SEEING HIM ; I REMEMBER MAKING FUN OF THE DEVIL ALMOST EVERYDAY ; BUT NOW ITS LOOKS LIKE THE DEVIL IS LAUGHING AT ME ; AND I SEE HIM; IT'S LIKE HE IS CLOSE; TAKEN OVER ; EVERYTHING BELONGS TO HIM ; BECAUSE THIS SAD TEARS AND FALLS MAKES HIM HAPPY ; BUT FOR I AND YOU TO CAN SURVIVE ; WE ONLY NEED TO LOOK UP ALWAYS. BUT I MISS THE DAYS 😢
Dazri Shihlomulo
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General Fictionthe difference between now and then ; being victimised as a young or grown up child ; being abused emotionally and physically ; and unable to say anything ; having no voice
