5 Years Apart

I Don't Care I Love You!

y/n: But we are 5 years apart, what would the fans think? They would hate me!

Colby: Well then they are fake fans. I don't care what they think I love you y/n...

y/n: I mean... My mom already approves of you...

Colby: so is that a yes?

y/n: Yes!

Colby hugs me, and wow he's happy! and I am too but I'm scared of what his fans are going to think. We hear someone say finally really loud so we look over at the door and all the roommates are there.

Corey: COLBY'S NOT LONELY ANYMORE!

Sam: that was honestly really cute!

Jake: FINALLY!! I SAW IT COMING!

Sam: I think we all did!

Me and Colby look at each other and laugh.

y/n: Sorry I forgot to close the door. I was too worried about you.

Colby: it ok.

Sam: Hey I need a video so you guys wanna play "Whos some likely to"

All: Sure!

We get downstairs and sam gets ready for the video. Sam comes up to me.

Sam: Hey do you care if it's dirty "Whos some likely to"

y/n: I don't mind!

Sam: ok good! (he smirks)

y/n: Oh no, what do you have planned?

Sam: nothing! (he walks away smiling)

Colby: What was that about?

y/n: I don't even know (I laugh)

Colby hugs me and says

Colby: I'm so happy that we are together, btw when are you going to tell your mom.

y/n: I was thinking some point tonight so she won't kill me. (I laugh)

Colby: ok, btw they are wanting to go to the hot tub tonight if you like to come.

I got scared cuz I still cut and I don't them to see and for Colby to get sad cuz I promised I would stop...

y/n: Oh umm I don't have a swimsuit, but thank you.

Colby: oh we can go get you a swimsuit!

y/n: You don't have to.

Colby: We can go after the video, It's fine.

y/n: ok thank you.

y/n thinking: Fuck, I just have to get a top and shorts then it should be fine.

Sam: GUYS IM READY!!

We all get to the couch snd sam starts the video

Sam: What's up guys, welcome back to my channel. here we are about to play a game... Whos most likely to dirty version!!

Later on, in the video It starts to get dirtier

Jake: who cam most likely put there hair up the fastest.

Sam: well its ether Corey or y/n. (Pretend Corey still had the man bun, RIP MAN BUN)

Jake: Have them race!!

Colby looks at me with one of those faces of are you sure you are ok with this, I nod my head.

Sam: OK! ready...set...GO!

Me and Corey start to put our hair up and I can tell Colby is staring at me. Me and Corey are about the same speed but I end up finishing first. I saw sam look at Colby as soon as I finished first. After the video, Colby came up to me.

Colby: you ready to go.

y/n: You sure it's fine.

Colby: yes I'm sure.

y/n: ok if you say so.

We go to the store and we get me a swimsuit. On the way back me and Colby start talking.

y/n: So when are you going to tell the fans.

Colby: I'm pretty sure they already know even when we weren't dating and with sams video.

y/n: good point.

Colby: I can probably do a Q and A and find a question asking if we are dating and just say yes then move on.

y/n: it's up to you I don't care.

When we get home Colby starts making a video. At first, it was a lot of normal questions then I heard the question.

Colby: ok next question "Are you and y/n dating?" yes we are.

I get scared cuz like what are the fans going to think. After the video Colby coms up to me and says.

Colby: It's going to be ok they will love you. They just have to get used to it.

y/n: ok...

Colby: So I have to edit the video then post it then we can go to the hot tub.

y/n: ok cool!

After like 2 hours of waiting, Colby was done so we went downstairs to see if the other were ready. The boys were already in there swimsuits so I just had to get in mine. The other goes outside and I go to get change. I'm scared cuz I don't want Colby to not trust me but I guess it's my fault if he doesn't trust me. I change then go downstairs.

When I go outside, Colby looks over at me and checks me out then calls me over to them. We talk as we wait or the hot tub to heat up. When it was done heating up we all go in. The water was really hot so it hurt really bad to put my legs in the water but I tried to ignore it. Like 15 minutes later I feel Colby's hand on my thigh a few inches away from my cut so I start getting nervous. After a while, we all go inside to go to sleep. me and Colby get changed in different rooms then goes to bed in Colby's room. At like 4:00 I wake up then I cant go back to sleep so I go over to Colby's little couch and play on my phone. I go on Instagram and see i have people trying to DM me, I read through them to see its all hate and bullying, saying like I'm not good enough for him and that I'm ugly and fat and that I should KMS. I go to the bathroom and cry, again I decided to cut... After it stops bleeding I go back to the couch, I end up falling asleep on the couch. 

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