Blazing Rivers

12

Guilt.

Eats away at you,
Creeps its way upon you,
Causing many different feelings to arise.

Stronger than happiness.
Stronger than your will.

An ugly burden your stuck with.

A burden only you can send away.

BLAZE

   A beeping sound wakes me up from my dreamless sleep. Guilt and shame surge through me as I see where I am. The pale colour of hospital walls and different monitors really makes me see the situation I'm in.

What I got myself in.

All because I felt broken and guilty.

Being more focused on my surroundings, I see Bentley, sound sleep in a hospital chair, looking peaceful as ever. He had his head back, mouth wide open, and snoring lightly. I laugh at the sight of my best friend.

My laugh wakes him and he instantly runs to my side, smiling. However I see through the smile, he's worried. Really worried.

"Hey B." I groan, feeling a slight pain in my head.

"Hi. You had me worried for a second."

"I'm sorry." I sigh. "How long have I been out?"

"A day. B you have to get help, I can't stand seeing you like this." He starts.

"You had a overdose, from the pills you took, mixed with the alcohol. I told you when Greyson gave you the ecstasy to never take more than one and don't mix it with alcohol." He looked serious now, sadness and disappointment more obvious in his voice.

I'm truly an idiot.

I kept my head down not meeting his gaze. Bentley grabs my hand, rubbing soothing circles into my skin. It's like he knows exactly how I'm feeling.

"I'm sorry." I choked, trying my best to hold back tears.

I don't cry, I haven't done for a long time.

"Hey it's okay. It'll all be okay." He grabs me in for a hug, holding me tight, like he's afraid that if he let's go, I'll disappear.

"I thought I'd lost you." He sobs.

"I'm not going anywhere B." I put my hand on his head, stroking his hair.

"Neither am I." He steps back, grabbing my hands. "You're stuck with me now."

Bentley and I continued talking about the most random things. I think he wants to take my mind off everything and it's working. Bentley made me forget everything, especially how I ended up in here. I'm glad about that, even if it won't last for long.

My hospital room door opens revealing Nicola, a bruise on her head, and blotchy red eyes like she'd been crying. She asks Bentley to give us a minute, him placing a kiss on my forehead before leaving.

"How are you feeling?"

"Okay I guess."

She nods, before breaking out in sobs, tears rolling down her face.

"I can't do this anymore Blaze. I hate seeing you like this. You were always such a happy child."

I couldn't speak, no sentences could be formed.

This is on me.

My fault.

It's always my fault.

"I know I promised your mother I'd take care of you, and if I'm going to continue to do that things are going to change." I nod, watching as she wipes her tears away, just to be replaced by more.

She is really upset.

"River Raeken spoke to me about you. He wants to help Blaze. In a different sort of way though. One that he thinks you'd be more comfortable with." She stands my side, holding my hand.

"He says it's more unconventional. He wants to try something different with you. Promise me you'll try with him Blaze. Please." She begs. "I don't want you in this state again. Ever."

I should try at least.

Who knows if it'd work.

I'm astonished he still wants to see me after I yelled at him. That used to send the others away. Not him though. River is different from the other people I've had to see. He's more understanding. Like he knows exactly what's going on. Sees right through behind the walls I keep up.

He amazes me.

And I've only met him once.

He intrigues me even more now though.

"Okay. I'll give it a shot." I agree, smiling up at her, squeezing her hand.

She smiles at me before telling me she's going to get the nurse and some food from the vending machine.

"Nicola!" I call just before she leaves the room.

She turns around waiting for what I'm about to say.

"I'm sorry for hurting you yesterday."

She just smiles at me once again, before leaving the room.

I don't know what this unconventional stuff means but I'm going to try anyway.

I hope and pray that I can. That my stubbornness won't get in the way.

I just really want to be myself again.

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UNEDITED

Hope you enjoyed this chapter

I know it's only chapter 12 but I just can't believe how far I've got with this story like how the storylines gone and such. It shocks me to how just a small idea has become like 12 chapters.

Thank you to everyone who reads, comments and votes it literally makes my day ✌🏻❤️

Another cute Blaze and Bentley scene. I love their relationship, I wish I had one like that. I need more friends in general but yeah 😂

Next up is River's POV from when Blaze yelled at him and ran off

River's unconventional therapy starts soon. Very soon. So fear not.