Katsuki Bakugou x male reader

Chapter 14:''It fucking hurts''.

Y/n P.O.V

I was eating lunch with Izuku, Tusyu, Tenyia and Ochaco when I heard Katsuki yelling something that I didn't expect: ''I said I don't like him!!! Are you fucking deaf shitty hair? If anything I hate damn scarred ass!!!''. My chest burned in pain and I told Izuku with a raspy voice: ''I'm not hungry anymore. I going to go for a walk''. ''Are you okay Y/n-kun???'' He said in a worried tone and I answered him with a mumbled: ''I'm fine''. Then I walked out of the dining hall, when I passed the door I started running to the bathroom. I entered to one of the stalls so no one would see me cry. Neither Katachi, Daiki nor I wanted to talk to no one, not even each other. The pain was so bad that I felt obligated to use numbification. It didn't feel right, not at all, I couldn't feel the pain once I felt on my chest but my brain was conflicted about the numb sensation like it always did when I used it. Also, my eyes were now shinning in the light blue color because of my quirk. I washed my face and sat on the sink counter, the only thing that got to my mind in that moment was to listen to some music to stop thinking about the weird sensation my quirk was giving to me. A shame that not long after Katsuki came into the bathroom. *Fucking fantastic* I got off the counter and started making my way towards the door but he stopped me. *Lucky me*.

Y/n: ''What do you want Bakugo?''. My voice came out really cold because of my quirk.

Katsuki: ''I...Tch...I didn't mean what I said back there, scarred ass''.

Y/n: *Is he really apologising?* *wherever, he probably just trying to play games with me* ''Doesn't matter''. I said trying to make my way out in vain since he took my shoulder and without noticing met his eyes.

Katsuki: ''I'm not letting you go until we clear this out!!! And what is wrong with your eyes?!?!?''. *Shit, he must have met my eyes, I was trying to be careful about it*.

Y/n:''It's not of your concern. What is it to you? Not like you even care in the first place''. *If he did care he wouldn't have said that*.

Katsuki:''Stop talking like icy hot damn it. Maybe I do care...So tell me fucking already!!!'' *Wait, he does care? What the hell? It can't be true*

Y/n:''I don't believe you...''. *He is probably just trying to mess with my head to get teh information he wants*

Katsuki:''I fucking told you already that I-didn't-fucking-mean-it. I admitted that I care so fucking-tell me''. *Damn, now how do I explain to him that when he said he hated me It hurt my feelings because he's my crush without actually telling him this???? Fuck my life*.

Y/n:''Fine, I am using my quirk, happy?''. *Maybe this will do...*

Katsuki:''Which one and why?'' *Or not*.

Y/n:''Why the fuck did I end in this situation again?'' I muttered under my breath.

Katsuki:''I said, which one and fucking why?!?!?! Also you better explain it''. *If I wasn't using my quirk right now I would probably be embarrassed as hell*.

Y/n:''Numbification...so like it sounds, I am numb to any kind of physical or psycological pain as well to emotions. Probably you already noticed anyways, also it makes my eyes shine in light blue''. *Please, just leave it like this...don't ask why...just don't*.

Katsuki:''What? And why are you using your quirk now, scarred ass?!?!''. *Like I said, fuck my life and my luck*.

Y/n:''...''. *Is there even a way to tell him without telling him I like him or giving a hint of it???*

Katsuki: ''How many times do I have to repeat myself damn it?!?!?!'' *I wish you just didn't...*.

Y/n:''I usually use it just to relax myself, that's all...''.*Please leave it like that*.

Katsuki:''HOW STUPID YOU THINK I AM?!?!?! TELL ME THE FUCKING REASON OR I'M GOING TO BLOW UP YOUR FACE!!!''. *Well, guess you aren't* *What a freaking surprise...*.

Y/n:''To this point I really don't care, go ahead it's not like I'm going to feel it'' *Even if I actually felt it I don't think It would hurt more than what he made my heart feel a bit ago*.

Katsuki: ''Damn it!!!''. ''Tch, I'm not going to blow up your face...just tell me...I'm worried about you, scared ass'' *I guess he really cares, but how do I fucking tell him?*.

Y/n:''Let's just say I don't like expressing my emotions when they are all over the place''. *I don't want to see his reaction...*.

Katsuki:''Wait, so you just bottle them up like nothing with your damn quirk?!?!?!''. *Better than expected*.

Y/n: ''So what?''.

Katsuki: ''Stop fucking using it, bottling up emotions is bad for your health, jackass''.

He put me down and started hugging me. When his arms touched me, my quirk effect wore off and I started having a lot of mixing feelings. I got a bit shocked and Katsuki surely noticed because he lifted up his face to look at me. ''Hey, are you okay?''. Is the last thing I hear before having an anxiety attack. My feelings were all over the place: I felt hurt because of Katsuki's words back in the dining hall, scared that he would figure out my feelings and reject me, embarrassed because of how close his body and face were to mine. Also I was feeling kind of fuzzy inside because of the warm of the hug. I couldn't stop crying and my throat starting hurting a lot so I couldn't talk. Even so the moment I felt my tears I tried my best to cover my face and hide it. Katsuki noticed that and tried to make me look at him.