We Can Do This,Together

Chapter 4

After a long day of school, it was finally the end of the day.

The bell rang and I walked out to my car unlocked it and hopped in.

I was greeted with the delicious smell of cinnamon, my car air freshener.

I started my car, blasted my music and drove off.

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10 mins later
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I drove into my driveway. Ugh finally home.

As I was getting out of the car someone veered into my driveway.

"What the hell" I whispered to myself.

It was Carter.

"Hey babe." He said jumping out of his red mustang.

I huffed.

"Are you excited for the party tonight?" He asked.

"I'm not going." I said monotoned.

"Yes you fucking are." He said angrily.

He pushed me up against my car and kissed me.

"I'll be here at 8." He said and jumped back in his car before I could reply.

Well shit... What about Tony.

I guess he will be here at 7, that should be enough time studying.

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It was around 6:45 pm, I was home alone laying in my bed.

I started overthinking.

A wave of sorrow hit me like a pile of bricks.

I started crying. Why had everything gone wrong in my life.

I have no one to talk to. Why would I want to bring someone into my own pain.

Every bad thought, every bad memory swirled in my head.

I just felt like I wanted to scream, like I was going to explode at any waking moment.

All the voices inside my head caused me to not only feel sorrow, but I felt so angry.

I curled up in a ball and pulled on my hair.

"Stop! Just fucking stop!" I yelled but the voices were only getting louder.

I got up while still bawling my eyes out but I was so angry I felt like I was gonna punch a wall.

I ran into my bathroom and locked the door.

I looked in the cabinets, trying to find what I needed.

I found a razor.

I sat down and positioned the razor on my wrist.

Then, the doorbell rang.

Fuck is it 7 already.

I threw the razor back into the cabinet and quickly some what fixed my makeup.

I ran to the door and opened it.

Tony stood, holding his books.

" Well, you ready to study?" He asked.

"Ugh." My voice was still full of sorrow. I cleared my throat. " Yea." I said quietly.

"What's... What's wrong?" He said frowning.

"I..." I couldn't say anything other than that or I was burst into tears.

I shut my eyes hard and shook my head.

"I..."

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A.N.
Haha cliff hanger! Sorry I haven't updated lately, I've been busy with Christmas stuff. But I'll update soon! I love all My Sexy Peps, thanks for reading so far. :)