wonderwall. cs

special chapter

it was a sunny afternoon here in los angeles so i decided to go out and go for a walk. it has been almost a year since cole and i's break up and all i could say is i'm not fully healed yet but i'm getting there, i know i would. the break up really did mess up my life. i cancelled a lot of new projects like shoots, interviews, and as well as movies. i just want to lay low for a while and focus on myself but i'm accepting offers one step at a time.

i decided to go to the nearest café to get some coffee and i just want to get out of the house actually. as soon as i arrived at the usual place, i heard a familiar voice. before i decided to escape, he called me.

"ren?" ha called out.

i slowly faced him and gave a small smile, "hey, cole."

"hey. are you gonna get the usual? i'll pay and if it's okay, i wanna talk to you for a while."

i sighed in defeat, "as if i could say no to you," we both chuckled.

after ordering, we found a table and awkwardness filled the atmosphere.

"what do you wanna talk about?" i asked him.

"us?" he said and i bit the inside of my cheeks, stopping my tears from flowing.

"what about us?" i asked while taking a sip from my latte.

"i'm really sorry, ren. i just wanna give you the closure you deserve. i know that there is no valid excuse when it comes to cheating and i know that i was wrong. maybe i was craving for something more. it wasn't your fault. it was mine," he sighed.

"you made me think i wasn't enough when all i did was to give you everything. everything that i didn't leave something for myself. i was so broken, cole. until now and all i want is this pain to stop," and i wasn't able to control the tears flowing down my cheeks. it hurts, so much.

"i know, i know. i wasn't thinking back then. i was so focused on finding what i wanted and didn't know i was hurting you in the process. i was so fucking blinded by temptations and i gave in."

"it's okay, cole. maybe we really aren't for each other."

"you deserve a lot better than me, ren. you should know that," he said.

"you love her, don't you?" i asked.

he paused for a moment, finding my real emotions through my eyes, "yes. i love her," he said.

i smiled and nodded, "that's all i wanted to know. i hope you'll take good care of her, cole. though we don't talk anymore, lili and i were once friends and i don't wanna see her hurt. i gotta go now, still have some projects to work on," i said and fixed my things, "thanks for today, cole. it means a lot."

"yeah, thank you, ren. i'm sorry, i really am and it's okay if you're not yet ready to forgive me."

"i already did," and i gave him a smile.

now, i could say my heart is happy. maybe this was the missing piece and now that i've found it, i'm ready to be happy once again.

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i thought it would be great to give them a closure and also a closure for you guys. i know this was a veryyy shitty work. i made this when i was 14 oh my god!

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