Remember Me

Numb

Jennifer's POV

I haven't moved my bed in a few days. I don't even know what time it is. I felt like I was in the same place that I was when Rihanna first died, but worse. I cried myself to sleep countless of times. Luckily, I was strong enough to push through the last few shows of my tour. It was memorable that made me happy, but I was dead on the inside at the same time. After I got home I just laid in the bed. My twins will come in and cheer me up most times.

I sighed, snuggling up against Jayce and Gisela as they both were sleep in my arms as I laid in the middle. Jayce on my left and Gisela on my right. I moved Jayce kissing him on the cheek, and moved him on the other side next to his sister.

I grabbed my phone looking at the time, 2:42 a.m. I got out the bed and headed to the- bathroom. I brushed my teeth and quickly hopped in the shower. I changed into a clean white t- shirt, and made my way back to bed. My phone dinged.

K💖😍- "I'm coming over right now I'm worried about you.
Please talk to me"

I sighed deeply rubbing my hand on my forehead:

"I'm fine."

K💖😍-"No you're not
Omw"

Not even 5 minutes later it was a knock on the door. I went down the stairs and opened the door. Kehlani rushed passed me and I closed the door.

She walked in the living room and I followed. She was hurt. I can tell and it was my fought. I ghosted her and everything that made me feel some type of way.

"I'm sorry." I spoke and she held up her finger.

"I- I don't know what to do. What can I do?" She said.

I shook my head, I had no words. I couldn't speak. I caused her this pain. Really that bitch Eve did.

All I could do was tell the truth, "I was married before. Well apparently I'm still am. Rihanna is the mother of my kids. She bought this home. She paved the way for me to become who I am today. She's the love of my life and she doesn't remem-" I looked down feeling tears forming.

Kehlani came over grabbing my face, forcing me to look at her:"Tell me what we have is real."

I grabbed her wrist looking in her eyes seeing that she was crying: "It is. But now I don't know how to feel. I'm numb." Tears fell from my eyes rapidly, "I'm sorry. I don't feel anything. The connection that we had-" I pulled Kehlani closer, "Make me feel. Make me feel anything."

She pulled me in and kissed me deeply. I fell into her embrace still holding back. Kehlani pushed me back into the wall almost knocking the wind out me. Her tongue was dominating mines and I let it. I took off my shirt and threw it on the side.  Kehlani went straight to my neck and I sighed deeply cupping hers. Her hands went to my breast pinching my nipple and she went down to my flower. My nipples peaked tighter in response. Kehlani pressed a kiss against my clitoris. She grabbed my leg and threw it over her shoulder. She swiped her tongue through my sex sending shivers through my spine.

I ran my fingers though her hair as I watched her. As I keened softly, she suckled, stroking her tongue back and forth against my clit. One of her hands traveled up to my breast gripping it tightly. I tugged her closer, moving my hips in the circular motion matching her rhythm. I moaned lowly as her speed started to increase. My knees became weak as I shivered on a verge of a climax. Sucking on my clit hard I froze cumming, every muscle and sinew locked with pleasure that folded out slowly.

Breathing heavy, Kehlani came back up to taking my mouth again. Making me taste myself on her tongue. Her hands traveled down my back and down to my ass picking me up. I yelped in surprise. We're basically the same height, but she's smaller than me. She carried me to the couch laying me down. I didn't know how to feel about this right now.

She traveled down my body and I stopped her. 

"Take off your clothes." She stood up and stripped out of her tank top and shorts. Followed behind her panties. I grabbed her hand and spread my legs making her put her pussy in mines. She started to grind slowly. She was super wet and my head fell back at the pleasure. She leaned down and kissed me. We embrace, our aroused breast against each other. We grind against each other, exchanging hungry kisses. It feels so good but my mind is still elsewhere. I can't give her all of me. It's not right.

I changed positions throwing her off guard. Kissing her neck I started going lower straight to her flower. Diving right in she arches violently.

She hissed, "Fuck Jennifer. I'm gonna cum."

Kehlani grabbed my head and pushed it in more sucking her clit harder. She cried out lowly, "Oh my-"

She began to shake rapidly and I quickly slipped my fingers in her. "Ahh!" She grabbed my hand and urged me to stop. I licked her clean making her finish her orgasm. 

Breathing heavy I went back up to her and held her. Kehlani kissed my forehead and I spoke,  "I'm sorry. I can't do this."

I felt her freeze, and I sat up going to the other end of the couch pulling my knees to my chest. 

"Why?"

I shook my head, "Because my heart still belongs to Rihanna."

Kehlani sat up slowly and looked at me shaking her head. Without another word to me she put on her clothes and walked out slamming the door. 

I sighed getting up and going back upstairs.

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I'm sorry I've been holding out on y'all. I've been lazy!!!!!

I love y'all though for real❤

Thank you for reading

~Kira❤😘