Feel bad, go to bed Wake up even worse, yeah So sad in my head Feelin' like a curse I need medicine, medicine, medicine All my skeletons out for the taking I don't even know if I'ma make it I'm afraid of myself and I hate it All my skeletons out for the taking Somebody take 'em ~keshi (skeletons)
My head was hurting, all thanks to my stupid actions and my stupid thoughts. I've been scrolling and scrolling watching fan edits and what not waiting for their message. Social media really does harM your mental health. I remove the earplugs from my ears and decided to take a 1am bath. Well i suck at making decisions so don't come @ me. I apologize in advance if my deeds seem to be annoying but i can't heLp it its who i am. Considering all the facts, taking a bath at 1 in the morning or the night is a bad idea especially if you have school tomorrow. I come out of the shower and put my wet hair in a bun using my towel and realize that a teeny strand of hair was left out which made me angry so i stuck it in between the folds of my towel. brushed my whiTe pearls and wore my retainer. I check the time and it was 2am already. I Suck At Sleeping as well as Suck At Waking Up. I am a NightOwl as well as an EarlyBird. so it's difficult to be stuck in between. I took out my nightgoWn wore it and went to my cozy bed. i started thinking and then i started hearing my alarm clock buzzing. I had a good night sleep. The same routine again changed into my gymsuit, went downstairs, wished moma goodmorning, drank a glass of water and then went out for a run. well to sum it up, i slept at 2 and woke up at 6am. Then i got back after 30 minutes bathed(again) and ate breakfast and started for school. waved moma goodbye. I took my bicycle out of the garage put earplugs in my ears and start for my one and only not at aLL precious school. Imagining where i was mentally and physically at that time riding down the slopes of the roads golden sunlight falling on me seemed to have some pretty good vibes . I enter the school gates parked my bike/cycle whatever itscalled and started for my classroom. as I enter I see those warm faces and cold faces and faceless faces and angry faces and weird expressional faces. I sat on my desk waiting for Nate, my bench mate/friend/brotherlyfigure. Meanwhile i waved and smiled at my cozy buddies Timothee, Hayley and the one and only Lara. I went over their desk did a small talk made eveything awkward with my stupid stupid jokes and left leaving evrybody uncomfortable. Then i saw nate enter the class smiled and started talking again. Then the usual happened teacher came taught us and went piling up with assignments weighing a ton. In between we all gather together laugh crack jokes and the rest goes back to being hazy until recess. I go to meet Rue and Vallerie. umm yaa my cheezy bffs whom i have loved for the past 7 years. over the years we've ran out of stuff to tell eachother , but still we manage to talk nonsense hahhah. Unfortunately due to different subject choices, we all got separated last year but our friend ship ain't got no obstacLes. I hear the bell ring and come back to my class returning to the same old faces. and the routine begins again. Until i blackout and all the noises seem to have heightened as if they're playing on a louD speaker everything gets bit of a blurr, don't worry i am not high just sleepy. verysleepy and i have euphoric as well as agressive impacts. I hear elio and michael blabbering like two 5 year olds fightingfor their cars, emily singing in her shrill voice at the last desk, the weird group laughing like monsters in the seat by the window, the cool dudes talking shit about others, the gossip girls gossiping whispering and laughing and then eveything shuts of and i go into the world of my own i.e. i sleep. I dream , a lot. i call myself a heavey sleeper. but when i wake up i don't remember anything, just the genre of the dream. Then the next teacher comes and starts teaching us again.r thanks to my sleepy stupid head i don't understand a thing. The school ended, went to see rue and vallerie again talked nonsense laughed like retards who were just let out of the mentalhospitals, so happy in their own little world of their own. I take my cycle and again start for my homesweethOme. i just took a turn when i heard my name being called... "Kaia.... wait.. Kaiaaaaa... staaawhpp...wait a minute..." it was eliO. the 17 year old with a mind of a five year old i talked about earlier. i think. i don't remember i was sleepy o00ops. i stopped my cycle and waited as he come to me. "What elio? what? " i said as i banged my head on the handle of my bike. i know it was rudebut i was sleepy and aggressive at that point of time not my fault. "Can i borrow your maths register pleeeeese.!?!?" "LoOoL whyy?" i replied in a awfully rhythmic way. "idioT I've gotta complete my work" "i don't have it on me right now it's sitting on my desk.. i can send the pictures if you want." "ya sure okay cool thanks" "i will but you've gotta send me a reminder i am pretty bad at remembering stuff " "okay okay i will ." we smiled amd parted. i got home gave moma a kiss drank my banana smoothie washed my face put my hair in a bun and went to my bed and slept. i had a good dream. i woke up 2 hours later, it was 5pm. Checked my phone and socials found nothing as usual. I came downstairs, moma and Olivia were sitting outside in the garden, it was sunny. and happy. i sat with them, and had a random chit chat with them. the rest of the day was like everyday pretty normal. Dad came later we ate dinner i did my assignments drew somthing in my portfolio listened to music and decided to go to bed to sleep when i felt like taking bath again. i checked the time it was 1 am. well 1 am is a pretty bad time to take a bath but who cares . i was just about to step in the shower when it hit me that I've been following the same routine again and again as if i am in a time loop for the past few months. I wake up and did everything like i did the other day. the only difference was that elio didnt come to ask me for my notes. My life was boring. and yes i am very much grateful for the amazing family the house the food i get everyday my friends my perfect senses, perfectly functional body and everything but somthing was missing. the twists were missing. i kinda miss living the life characters in tv shows live. It feels like i am in an endless loop doing the same things thinking about the same things again and again, but that's what life is isn't it?
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