I don't know what time is it, it's dark outside, i hear nothing, not even a bird. My body feels heavy, i can move but it hurts, it hurts, it hurts, it hurts so bad i feel a giant head pain, it's different from a headache, I'm not sure how it's different, I just know.
I'm laying in bed, on my right side, suddenly i feel guilt, guilty about things i did. I feel guilty for telling every single lie i remember, i regret not remembering all the lies i told, i regret not being as loyal as i should be, i regret believing, i regret trusting, i regret just every little things i ever did in my 15 years of existence.
Tears fall on my pillow, one, two, three, they continue to flow nonstop. Why? Why is my vision blurry, why is my pillow case wet, why is my breathing heavier and heavier? At that moment, i didn't realize I was crying.
