Treat me like somebody

In this together

~~Jerome~~

It's been 4weeks since kyerra told us she had cancer. The same night me and jas got home she couldn't stop crying. Each night it's been the same she cries herself to sleep no matter how much I try and comfort her it doesn't seem to work.

When kyerra said the cancer is slowly getting worst that really took a tole on jas, she hasn't been the same in weeks. She goes to school in the morning,  works at night, comes back a few hours later eats, takes a shower and goes straight to sleep and repeats the cycle we barely even talk anymore but soon all that is about to change.

"Jas get up , and go get dressed."

"Why it's going on 12 o'clock and your just now trying to do something tonight I don't feel like going anywhere".

"Well your still going to get up and get dressed because I have plans for us tonight".

Tonight I plan on telling her how I feel about her and to talk about the situation with kyerra .

I know it's not the perfect timing but I think it's time I let her know that I love her and that she's not going through this by herself. Because I will be by her side no matter what. If she needs a shoulder to cry on I'm here.

If she just needs somebody to talk to and let all her feelings out I'm here too.

I can cook for her, comfort her, help her needs, give her back rubs. Run her bath water. I'm willing to do any and anything just to keep her happy.

All this mopping around is causing an effect on me she needs to get out and have fun for once. Because being sad and acting that way isn't going to change the fact that kyerra is sick. At first I thought us dating would be a problem because good girls and hustlers don't mix. Because sometimes women can't handle that type of lifestyle. And I don't want to bring her into a life she can't handle , the drugs , the fast money, the hoes, the enemies, and the most important thing is having people always on our case.

I'm not trying to hop head first into a relationship I just really want to get everything off my chest . I dont know exactly how she will react but hopefully everything goes ok and she doesn't over react.

"But I don't want to go anywhere though I just want to stay home and relax because I'm finally off  and I don't have class tomorrow" she whinned.

"Jazzie come on please get up" I said while calling her the nickname I gave her.

"ughh fine" she said while getting up from the bed walking towards the walk in closet.

"When your done getting dressed meet me downstairs I'll be waiting".

~~jasmine~~

I don't understand why jerome couldn't just let me be I really just wanted to stay home today. These past 4 weeks have been the hardest days and weeks of my life.

When I told kyerra I would be by her side I really meant that. I've been with her for her treatments and her doctors appointments for her baby girl kyra. Her and leon finally decided they would name her after leon's mother since she passed away recently.

I've been spending time with her every chance I get as if it was her last day on earth. I'm trying to spend as much time with her because I know she won't be here forever. As sad as that may sound but I'm trying to make the best memories that we've ever had.