Unconditionally

Chapter five

Someone had asked about why I use him/he terms for Draco while he is thinking, when she’s actually a girl. I don’t really know much about transgender people of course, but I do it like this: I use the terms that fit with who he/she is at the moment, so if she is dressed and charmed as herself, a girl, I use she/her. But when he is not, like most of the time, I use he/him. I also feel like that’s what Draco would try to do, because he would have to be the boy everyone expects him to be, he has to think like that boy. Get it?

Here is chapter five:

When Harry woke up the next morning, Ron was already downstairs in the commonroom. The other boys in the dorm were still asleep. He yawned once, and then got up to make himself ready for the day. Thinking about last night, he smiled to himself.

As Harry walked down to the commonroom, he saw Ron and Hermione sitting together on one of the couches. When they heard him, they both turned around.”Harry, where were you last night? We’ve waited for hours, but you didn’t come back. Is everything alright? If something was wrong you’d tell us right?” Hermione asked with a worried voice, Harry smiled, she was like a mother, always worried about what Ron and he were doing. “Everything’s fine ‘Mione, I swear. I was in the Room of Requierments, practising Defence Against the Dark Arts, when I was done the room conjured a rather comfortable couch, and I fell asleep for a couple of hours. ”

Hermione looked satisfied with this answer, and so she let the subject rest. “Shall we go to the Great Hall for breakfast? I’m hungry.” Both boys nodded and together the three of them went down to get breakfast. Meanwhile Harry thought about how Draco had reacted when he woke up today, on the couch in the room of requirements. He started smiling at the thought.

As Harry and his friends entered the great hall, his eyes immediately searched for the blonde slytherin, he let out a small sigh of relieve when he saw the boy sitting at his usual place, between Pansy Parkinson and Blaise Zabini. When Draco looked up, their eyes met and both boys smiled at each other. They looked away, not wanting their friends to notice of course.

During breakfast Draco listened half to the conversations his friends were having, his thoughts wandering to his boyfriend. When he had awoken in the Room of Requirement he was confused at first, he didn’t immediately remember why he was there. But he was grateful to Harry for letting him sleep there, he really needed it.

When breakfast ended, Draco told his friends he would be practising in the Room of Requirement with his potions, and headed to said room. Once he was inside, he was planning on going back to the hufflepuffgirls he had met. The room had obviously conjured more fitting clothes for just hanging around school, as the closet now was filled with tons of blouses, skirts and jeans.

When she was finally done with dressing herself up, Draco looked in the mirror, admiring her new body. “Ethelyn” she said to her mirrorimage. Ethelyn was the name she had decided to give herself, she thought it was beautiful, and it meant ‘Noble and Graceful woman.’ Which was what she hoped to be some day.

Satisfied with her look, Ethelyn walked out of the room, and went searching for her new friends. She hoped the girls were on the same place as last day, which was very likely as they had said they usually sat there.

She was right, the girls did sit there, they were talking to each other. “Er, hey.” Ethelyn said shyly, which caused the girls to turn around. “Hey! Have you already decided on a name yet?” She nodded, “Yes I have actually, I think I’ll go with Ethelyn, it sounds beautiful.” The girls nodded in agreement.

“Ethelyn, why can’t you be yourself when you’re not like this? You don’t have to tell of course, but we’re all curious.” She bit her lip “Because everyone has expectations for me, I’m supposed to be perfect, good in everything, to be the perfect son of my father.” Ethelyn slapped her hand on her mouth, ‘Damn it! Why did I say that?! Now they-’ Her thoughts were interrupted by one of the girls, Dawn, “Son? So, you’re a boy? Who’s now a girl? I’m sorry I don’t get it.”

“I think Ethelyn is transgender, right Ethelyn?”  Celeste asked. Ethelyn nodded “Yes, I’m a girl, but I’m born in a boys body.” Celeste put an arm around her shoulder “Wow, that must be so hard, being someone you’re not, all the time.” Ethelyn smiled “Yes it is, that’s why I was so happy when I met you all.”

“But how do you look like a girl? I mean, as a boy you don’t have breasts right? ” Dabria asked, she was the one who dared to asked every question, no matter how personal or embarrassing. She laughed “No I don’t of course, it’s a charm I found in a book. Just like everything else.”

“I don’t think there’s a chance you’ll tell us who you actually are right?” “No there isn’t, you’ll have to find out with everyone else, which probably means never.” All four of the girls looked at her with pity “I’m sure you will, Ethelyn, if people don’t respect who you are, they are not worthy your company. ” The girl smiled “Thank you Kiana.”

“Do you have a boy or girlfriend?” Dabria again “Yes, I have a boyfriend, but he doesn’t know anything. I’m not sure how he’ll react, we only got together on valentinesday. And he’s gay, so I don’t think he’ll like me when I’m a girl.” The thought made the girl sad, she loved Harry, that was sure, but he was gay, so if she was a girl...

“Maybe he’s not gay, it could be he’s bisexual, or pansexual, right?” “Dawn is right, you shouldn’t just assume the worst, I’m sure he’ll be okay with it.” Noticing it was almost time for lunch,  the girls got up to eat something. Before Ethelyn walked away to the Room of Requirements, Kiana grabbed her arm, saying something that made the petite girl smile.

“I don’t care you’re born a boy, you make a beautiful girl.”

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