Back again to write a new chapter during this stupid Corona virus which has ruined my life. Took away everything that is fun about senior year. I haven't seen my friends in months. The only person I get to see outside of my family is the same boyfriend from the last chapter. It's been a year and 7 months and we wanna get married after college, and I'm excited for that. I graduate next week, in my car. My school is doing a drive through graduation and honestly I've cried so much, in Hawaii graduation is so much more special. We get leis all the way to the top of our heads and big signs with our name and picture and we have class songs we sing and dance to but now I get none of that and it hurts. I don't get to start college because all the classes are online and I hate online school. This pandemic isn't even that bad, so many other illnesses kill more people a year than this illness. The media where I live is making a giant deal over it and embellishing everything and I can't even watch the news now a days because it's just depressing. The only part of my life that I am happy with is my relationship. He makes me so happy, he cares for me, we've been through a forced break up from his mother and then he fought back and won me back. We've been in a car accident together. We've shared many tears and helped each other with our stress. And I can't wait till the day I get to have his last name. Something amazing happend, he was at my house and the night before I had found this little tin in the shape of a coffin and inside was my razor from years ago. I decided to throw it away with him and to just let it all go. Me and him were standing next to each other and he saw it for a split second and then it was gone. I couldn't believe it. It was there and then dissapeared before my very eyes. God took it from me and I cried and cried with him and I finally for the first time felt free. I promise you, you can get through these tough times.
Sincerely,
An ok young adult
