Best Part: Book 1

Chapter 3

I AM ALL ABOUT SELF-DETERMINATION. Will. Control. I determine my path in life. I decide my failures and successes. Screw fate. Destiny can kiss my ass. If I want something badly enough, I can have it. If I focus, sacrifice, there is nothing I can't do.

What is the point of my posturing, you ask? Why do I sound like the featured speaker at a self-help convention? What exactly am I trying to say?

In a nutshell: I control my dick. My dick does not control me. At least, that's what I've been telling myself for the last hour and a half.

See me there, at my desk, mumbling like a goddamn schizophrenic off her meds?

That's me reminding myself of the tenets, the sacred beliefs that have gotten me this far in life. The ones that have made me an uncontested success in the bedroom and in the office. The ones that have never failed me before. The ones that I am dying to throw out the fucking window. All because of the woman in the office down the hall.

Ruby Jane Everyone-Calls-Me-Jennie Kim.

Talk about a frigging curveball.

The way I see it, I could still go for the gold. Technically speaking, I didn't meet Jennie at work; I met her in a bar. That means she could forgo the label of "coworker" and retain the "random hook-up" status with which she was originally designated.

What? I'm a businesswoman; it's my job to find loopholes.
So, in theory at least, I could definitely nail her and not undermine my own personal laws of nature. The problem with that strategy, of course, is what happens after.

The longing glances, the hopeful eyes, the pathetic attempts to make me jealous. The supposedly "accidental" meetings, the questions about my plans, the seemingly casual walks past my office door. All of which would inevitably escalate into disturbing semi-stalkerish behavior.

Some women can handle a one-night stand. Others can't. And I have definitely been on the wrong end of those who can't.

It ain't pretty.

So, you see, no matter how badly I want to, no matter how hard the little head is trying to lead me down that road, it's not the kind of thing I want to bring into my place of business. My sanctuary—my second home.

It's not going to happen. Period.

That's it. End of discussion.

Case closed.

Jennie Kim is officially scratched off my list of potentials. She is forbidden, untouchable, a no-way-never. Right next to my friends' ex-girlfriends, the boss's daughter, and my sister's best friends.

Well, that last category is a bit of a gray area. When I was eighteen, Somi's best friend, Tzuyu Chou, spent the summer at our house. God bless her—that girl had a mouth like a Dyson vacuum. Lucky for me, The Bitch never learned of her friend's two a.m. visits to my room. There would have been hell to pay—I'm talking fire-and-brimstone-of-apocalyptic-proportions hell—if she had.

Anyway, where was I?

Oh, right. I was explaining that I have come to the unequivocal decision that Jennie Kim's ass is one that I, sadly, am never going to tap. And I'm okay with that.

Really.

And I almost believe myself.

Right up until she shows up at my door.

Christ.

She's wearing glasses. The dark-rimmed kind. The female version of Clark Kent's. They would be "geeky-looking and unattractive on most women. But not her. On the bridge of that tiny nose, framing those long-lashed beauties, with her hair swept up in that slightly loosened bun, they are nothing short of full-out sexy.