Alone

Geek Life

I sat on the park bench alone, as usual, watching all the happy people go by.

Of course, I'm the loser sitting alone.

Well, geek if you want to define it.

After my parents got divorced three years ago, my life came tumbling downhill pretty quickly. Let's just say I became diagnosed with Bipolar Depression and Anxiety. But I take medicine for it so I guess I'm pretty average besides the fact I lost most of my friends, except for one.

My older step-sister Gabby. She understands me better than I understand myself. I think that Red heads have some super psychic abilities that nobody knows about.

I have this journal I keep with my because my therapist says it "helps with my anxiety". I mean I think it does too now.

I just write whatever I feel like and Dr. Macy checks it every other day to make sure I'm doing it.

Believe me I have absolutely nothing else to do so why not?

It isn't as bad as you might think though, you just kinda write whatever, and I write stories a lot. Gabby always tells me I am going to be an author one day, and i really hope she is right because I can't seem to stop.

It's one of those things where your characters can relate to you the most you know?

But it's whatever.

I shielded the glare from the dim, orange sun on my glasses. It was nearing the end of Summer, so the sun started to get really bright. Like REALLY bright.

I pulled on the sleeves of my jacket and gripped them in the palms of my hands, standing up, and walking past the kids on the playground.

I remember when my friends and I used to play on that playground.

Thinking about them now, I can't believe they would hang out with such a loser.

I slipped on of my headphones in my ear, and turned on my favorite Spotify playlist.

Tides by Jack and Jack came on. This is actually my favorite song! The two of them go to my school, and we used to be inseparable.

Literally.

If I went somewhere, so did the two of them, and vise versa.

I thought a little about it but ended up shaking it out of my mind.