Why Am I Here? (BNHA×Reader)

3-Why

I was sitting in class. My want to smoke, and cut growing. Why do I do this to myself? Why does everyone hate me? Why me? I wanted to know.

I'm just a stupid girl. No one wants me here. I can't do this any more. My heart started to slow down. My smile still on my face. My eye's looked over all the kid's in the desks.

My heart thumping. I wanted, no needed to do something. I know Mr.Aizawa won't let is use the bathroom. So I pulled out a colored pencil.

I started to scratch my skin lightly. Not to much to bleed, but it hurt. It made me happy that I could have the pain during class. I put it up after. Pink scratches on my arm.

"L/N? Are you listening?" Mr.Aizawa asked.

"Yes I am sir." I said.

He nodded, and went back to talking. I started to take my notes.

*Time Skip*

I was going to skip lunch. So I just started to walk to the back hall. I usually sit there, and someone will beat me up. That was untill I was called to the office.

I started to walk there. I knock on the door and heard a soft,"Come in". I walked into the office. I saw three kid's. All had injuries.

"Y/N we need to talk." Nezu said,"These kid's have been saying you used your quirk on them. And this is only this week. Last week there were five."

"I didn't do it." I said looking down.

Then someone else came in. It was Momo.

"Principle Nezu?"

"Yes Momo?" Nezu asked.

"She did it again." She said. She showed him her hand. He looked at me with a frown.

"Y/N why are you doing this?" He asked.

"Because she hates us. She puts notes in our lockers telling us we should just die!" A girl with pink hair said.

"Is this true?" Nezu asked.

"No, no it's not." I said.

They all started to give him the notes. He looked at them all.

"Well it looks like it's true. I didn't want to have to do this, but your going to have to be in your own little class room." Nezu said.

I nodded, and walked out. I ran out of the school to the court yard. I started to get mad. Not at them, but me.

'I don't hate them Nezu. I hate myself!' I said to myself.

I felt a hard yank on my hair. I looked, and it was a guy with blue, and red hair. He started to pull it hard.

He punched me in the nose. It started to bleed, but I keep my smile. He kicked me in the gut, and I let out one tear. He started to leave after.

I sat in the court yard. I started to cut once no one was around. My smile turning into a frown.

"Why me? Why is all of this happening to me? What did I do? I guess existing is what I did." I said to myself out loud.

I stopped cutting, and looked down at my body. I have been eating a meal a day. 'Maybe I should just eat a little piece of something a day.'

My eye's looked up at the sky. Nezu had given me a paper that was my new class. I started to walk to it. I sat down in a desk.

I was the only one in there. Lot's of papers on the desk. I started to work on them. My eye's letting a few tears out.

My eye's looked up at a screen. It started to play.

"Y/N I'm sorry you had to be in here. You just need to stop hurting people." The Nezu on the screen said.

'The only person I'm hurting is myself.'

I just looked back at the papers I had. Working quietly. When the end of the day came I left. I walked to my house quickly. I saw Yuki wasn't home. So I'm going to take this to my advantage.