I changed into some grey sweats and just a plain shirt for bed. A knock on the door made me open my eyes once again. Jenna slowly opened the door with ice cream in her hand and a bright smile on her face.
"What are you doing?" I laughed at her.
She crawled beside me, handing me my bowl of ice cream and taking over the remote "You don't need him hope. You're way more badass without him"
"Yeah but it don't feel that way" I stab the ice cream with my spoon "I just don't get how they all could hurt me. Everyone of them I cared for and they just hurt me."
Jenna reached her arm around me "Wanna know how I got over my heartbreak?" She asked
I lifted my head up and looked at her "Your heartbreak?"
"Yes" she nods "I got up and kept going. I made self better so that boy would realize what he lost."
I laugh "You're right Jenna" I smiled "Thanks"
As the movie reached the end and the bowls grew empty our eyes got heavier. The lights dimmed out and I was knocked out asleep in Jenna arms.
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Next Morning
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"Hope" Jenna softly shook me away "Dads home. Hurry downstairs" she happily said
I groaned and slowly crawled my way out of bed. I followed Jenna down the stairs and into the living room where my dad sat in his recliner with his tv on waiting for breakfast to be finished.
"Dad" I smiled
He looked up from the tv expecting to see Jenna "Hope?" He spoke "You're home"
"She won't be here long" mother came behind me and brought my father breakfast "We have a girls day, right?"
I gave her a faint nod with a smile "Great, go get ready"
I head back up the stairs and close the door behind me. I fall to the ground and just look at the ceiling.
Jaden was all my mind could possibly think about right now. Him and Zoey in the same spot me and him fucked before and now it's infected with their disgusting sins.
"You ready?" My mom shouts from downstairs
I wipe away the tears and quickly put on one of my old summer dresses. I join mother in the living and say goodbye to Jenna and dad.
"So I was thinking we can start at the mall then end the day with a trip to the beach" she smiled as she started the car and pulled out the driveway
"Sounds nice" I put on a bright happy smile for her.
We arrive at the mall and entered every single store there is. I bought a few items just to please my mom in making her think this is helping when it's making me wanna go home even more.
It's making me miss my friends more than anything. I would always and only go to the mall with them.
"Are you hungry? Let's go find something in the foodcourt" she grabbed my hand.
I order just a basic salad from the place we went to. We took our seats more in the back.
"See isn't this fun?" My mother laughed "I told you this is just what-"
Everything else she said was a blur. Behind my mother in the distance stood Zoey, Rose, Nathan and Jaden all together with shopping bags in their hands.
"Can we leave?" I tried to rush before they saw me "mom please"
Before she could pack up her food Zoey made herself noticeable by walking straight to our table.
"Hope" she smiled as if we were still best friends "Oh and her old mom"
I put my head down avoiding eye contact with Jaden before my heart shattered once again.
"I'm so happy that you're okay after last night" She lightly touched my hand "You are, right?"
"Perfectly fine" I lifted my eyes up to her with a straight face causing her to take a few steps back. "We were just leaving. You guys enjoy your double date"
"We will" Zoey said
"It's not a double date" Jaden spoke at the same time, overpowering her voice.
I rolled my eyes and grabbed my things. I threw my food into the trash and walk out there as if they didn't faze me at all.
"Okay, how about we head to the beach?" My mother smiled brightly again as if everything was okay. As if I didn't just get my heart broken again right in front of her.
"Actually mom" I paused trying to find a way to say this without hurting her feelings "I wanna just go home"
"Of course honey. Let's head home" she started up the car
"No. My home. With my real dad." I had to say it the hard way for her to finally realize what I meant.
She drives back to my house with a straight face the entire time. My words effected her more than I really wanted them to but I'm so tired of being nice. Of letting people walk over me because I allow them to.
We pull into the driveway. I say goodbye and wait for her to fully pull out. Once her car was gone I rushed inside the garage and grabbed my jeep.
Being home was the last thing I wanted, there was no where I possibly wanted to be. Nothing would ease this feeling besides a distraction.
I pulled into the shooting range. They immediately got me set up in a spot with every weapon and all the ammo I need to just shoot off my anger. To go crazy.
"Hope?" I heard
I turn around and see Alex standing there with two guns in his hands "What are you doing here?" He asked
"Letting out some anger" I set down the gun
He laughs and loads his gun "Looks like we're here for the same thing. I'll tell you my story if you tell me"
I laugh "deal"
"Me and my boyfriend got into a really bad argument. He isn't ready to come out of the closet yet and I completely understand that but I'm at a age where I'm ready for a public serious relationship" Alex told me his reason. "Now you"
"I was at my boyfriends, actually I don't know what he was but I was at his party and I went to his room to lay down cause I had to much to drink. When I opened the door I saw him and my best friend making out on his bed and then I found out the reason my old boyfriend broke up with me was because he cheated on me with my other best friend."
Alex mouth dropped. "Yeah you win on shitty days"
"It's whatever now. I just need a distraction so all I need to do is train."
"Look how about we start training together?" He asked me with a smile "We both need to let some anger out why not do it together?"
"You know that's not a bad idea." I said "I have to go but I'll text you and arrange a day"
"Sounds like a plan Ms Petrova" he smiled.
I said goodbye and made my way out the building. I parked in the Starbucks parking lot and went to order myself a treat.
I reached for my keys in my bag and put them in the keyhole on my door handle.
"Don't scream" something pressed against my back and a hand covered my mouth "Get in the car. Go"
