I Can't Live Without Him~ Ondreaz Lopez

Chapter 23~ A talk with Ondre

Ondre and I walk to the bathroom hand in hand. Once we went in, he shut the door behind us and set me on the counter, so I could take care of him. I ran a washcloth under the sink, and squeezed the water out of it. Ondre parted my legs open and stood in between them.
"Stay still, it might hurt a bit," I tell him.
"Baby I have 4 tattoos. Trust me it won't hurt," He says making me laugh.
I press the washcloth over his bloody nose. He looks me in the eye as I apply pressure and I feel so bad. It's my fault he got hurt.
"I'm so sorry Ondre," I tell him.
"You shouldn't be sorry, that d*ck David should be sorry," He says putting his hands on my waist.
"I know I just feel bad," I say.
"Baby you shouldn't. I want to talk to you about this. Your always blaming things on yourself and feeling bad for others when you shouldn't," He says.
"Yeah I know. I just got use to it from being with David," I tell him, as I rinse the washcloth off.
"Your with me now and we're going to talk about what you have gone through and your feelings," He tells me.
"Okay, okay Dre," I say whining.
Ondre picks me up and sets me on his bed.
"I wasn't done yet though," I say pouting.
"I want to talk to you, it's a lot more important. My face can wait," He says as he sits down and grabs my hands. "Why do you always blame things on yourself baby?" He asks me.
"Bec-because David always got mad at me and blamed it on me, so I thought he was right. He was my first love and I didn't understand what he was doing was wrong," I tell him.
"Baby-no one should ever hurt you. I don't know what I'd do to myself if I even by accidentally hurt you," He says.
"I know I'm sorry. David just changed me to view myself differently. He said I was never pretty, smart, and said I did stupid things," I said.
"Your not though baby. He was insecure about himself. He definitely has problems and he needs some help," He tells me.
"Do I need help too?" I ask him as tears fall from my eyes.
"No no baby! I'm going to teach you how to be proud of being yourself. And then one day you'll teach our children," He says wiping my tears away.
"I just feel bad. I don't know why. What if David really change. Should I be his friend?" I ask him.
"Baby I'm concerned about you. You shouldn't be friends with someone who abused you. David either needs to get locked up or put in a mental hospital, and you won't go near him," He tells me. "What your going through is the after math of an abusive relationship. Don't let him get into your beautiful head. I will always take care of you and love you. Don't you ever forget that," He says hugging me.
"I feel a lot better after talking to you Dre," I say smiling.
"I feel better too. We just need to talk about it. I don't want to fight like other couples," He tells me and kisses my forehead.
"Can we go get you medicine?" I ask him.
"Yeah but your staying right next to me until I know that David d*ck is out of the house," He tells me.
"Okay," I say as we walk out of his room hand in hand.
I'm so glad I moved here. I would of never thought this was love.