𝙢𝙖𝙩𝙩𝙞𝙖 𝙥𝙤𝙡𝙞𝙗𝙞𝙤 𝙨𝙖𝙙 𝙞𝙢𝙖𝙜𝙞𝙣𝙚𝙨

leave.

y/n's POV

im sitting on the corner of mattia's bed while scrolling through tiktok.
mattia has been my bestfriend since middle school and we are really comfortable around each other.
pecks on the cheek, random hugs, kissing each others foreheads, its normal for us. even though we're just best friends.
he's really protective to me. as if he's my father.
but on sophomore year, i developed some king of feelings for him.
i tried pushing it away cause i know that he doesnt feel the same and so that i wont lose our friendship, but i just cant.
so i just kept my feelings from mattia.
basically, no one knows i like him.

"y/n." he sternly said.
"uh... yeah?" i questioned turning my phone off.
"what the fuck is this" showing his phone, clearly mad, with a mix of confusion.

so ttr posted something about me talking shit about his girlfriend, lauren. it was on the dms with a fan.
but i swear on my life i didnt do anything.

"what? no. i didnt do that." i said, looking at him in the eyes.
"can you please stop lying?!" he shouted at my face.
"mattia, just let me explain" i said, trying to be calm.
"oh dont explain. i dont need bullshit." he said looking straight into my soul.
"its clearly edited. look." i tried pointing at the imperfections of the screenshot.
"AND DO YOU THINK I'LL FUCKING BELIEVE YOU?!" he said pushing me lightly, but i resulted on falling to the floor.

now i cant stop the tears.
i cried, pushing my hair away from my face.

"are you not happy for me?" tears are now rolling down his cheeks.
"i am happy for you mattia. and i will never do that. i love you. you know that." i barely got my words out.
"you dont." he said standing up and throwing my bag at the floor.

fucking heck. i cant lose my bestfriend.

"leave." he said sternly with dry tears staining his cheeks.
"w-what?" i looked up at him.
"i said leave."
"i really didnt do it mattia." i stood up, picking up my bag.
"you no longer have a best friend that will protect you and love you at all costs y/n. now fucking leave."

i struggled to breathe.
my hearrt pounding out of my chest.
everything just went blurry.
that is the sentence he said that hurt that the most.
i lost him.

"o-ok." i just didnt want to explain anymore.

i headed out and walked back to my home.
the silence and cold breeze wrapping around me.
my tears falling to the ground like theyre raindrops falling from the sky.
my hair flying with the wind.

and with the thoughts circling my mind:
its over. i lost him. my bestfriend, mattia. the man that i love so much.

amethyst's note:
please leave requests. my mind is running out of ideas :((