Samantha (G×G) [Teacher×Student]

Chapter VIII

Samantha's POV

It’s been three freaking days.

"You are fired" like wtf dude. How rude can you be! Just like the daughter. I guess the apple doesn’t fall far from the tree.

Honestly I wouldn’t even care if I was fired. But the problem is, I don’t even know whether I am fired or not.

So here's what happened. The environment was getting pretty intense in Principal's room. I was about to punch him in the face.

Who am I kidding! I was probably going to just keep quiet. I mean what was I  supposed to do at that moment. He was angry, he is a very powerful person & I am just a good looking teacher. You shouldn’t expect me to go all black widow on him.

Our good for nothing Principal intervened at that moment. Even though he didn't take my side, he didn't exactly fire me. He told me to pack my stuff, go back home for the day. I guess this angry (not so young man) thought that I was getting fired so he calmed down a bit. I wasn’t sure as to what I was supposed to do so I just packed my stuff and came back home.

And it’s been three days since then.

I have finished 5 books so far. Ahem, by finish I  mean I have destroyed most of them. But that's not the main point.

The main point is I have to go back to the library and explain it to the librarian.

So that's where I am going. Maybe few more books will cheer me upyou. will read them not destroy them (for the record).

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Is there really a thing called afterlife? A place where we will live forever? Will that life be better than this one? What if there is none?

All throughout my life I have wondered about the first 3 questions. And honestly afterlife always seemed so tempting.

But that final question stopped me on my track every single time.

What if there is no afterlife?

"Even if there is no afterlife, there is an end"......right?
Even if there is nothing it shouldn’t even matter for someone like me. I would have become free. Free from everything.

But for some reason I couldn’t end this one. Every single time I tried, it felt like I was going to miss something. But what?

I am a burden, aren't I? In this family, where.....  In the school, where the teachers always have to look out for me. And for this new teacher, who got fired on her first day because of me. I should have just stayed quiet. I shouldn’t have cried. I shouldn’t have protested. I should have just let her do whatever she wanted to do. Just like a good little girl. I always make it hard for everyone.  I always end up being a burden. Why? Just why am I even alive? A person like me should just.....

I would like to see her. Even if for once.....Why would a person get herself in trouble on her first day? For a person so weak that can't even talk for herself. All she had to do was ignore it. Just like every other teacher & she would have been fine. Then why? She got fired because of me. For this pathetic excuse of a human.

It’s been three days since the incident. Even though going back to school would have been easier. Anywhere but here would be better. But Principal asked me to take a short break. Now I don’t have a place to hide.

For the past few years, the library has become my only safe spot. It’s the greatest place ever. It shows you places that you would have never imagined. Stories that you would have never known. A place where no one can hurt you.

Like that diary that I found in the storeroom. I don't know how it ended up in the library. I guess, somebody found it and gave it to the library.

At first, I didn’t want to read. But I couldn't hold my curiosity. It was just a simple diary. But it included something interesting. A story of a night. A night that changed her personality. Her views on life. It all seemed so surreal. It was like just another story from a novel. Does thing like that even happen. For some reason it felt so good. I felt like I have known them for years. The emotions seemed so real. Like I could feel them. It made me smile. Thinking about them, thinking about how it went was so satisfying.

Silly me, even if things like that happen it won't happen with me. Even though, I wish I......... had a friend. I can't have them.

That friend of hers seemed so nice. How did she know that her friend was into something different. How could she know her so well. I wish I had a friend.

I have never been the one to wish for something as good as that. But this diary made me wish. It’s fascinating.

......Again I am getting lost on my thoughts. I should probably just get going. I have to return this diary back to the library. As much as I would like to keep it, I shouldn’t.  Maybe I should try to return it to the original owners. I should talk to the librarian at first though.

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[ Author's note : Welp, I am back. This time I will try to finish the story. I still haven’t decided the ending. And it’s going to be a long story. So bear with me. Also there’s going to be a lot of mistakes. I will re-edit it in the future. Story will be the same but presentation will be better ]