I remember it briefly every memory was like a flash. This may be short. But I don't know. I don't know what I am anymore. I don't know if this was a doctor or not. I'm just a Native American. This doctor was talking about something ADHD. I need to take medication for it. It didn't really seem like ADHD medicine how it was described on the bottle it was Strange. I didn't really mind it I just took it every day it seem like it..... was working until I felt something snapped in my head.
I started hearing stuff
I started seeing stuff
I didn't feel the same
I felt like screaming
But I couldn't
I was not in Control of my body anymore
Horrible mood swings
I felt like I was breaking
Every moment on that drug was agony
No matter what they did no matter. If they increase the medication it made me more insane
When they lowered it. I felt Control again but the mood swings kept happening more now. This went on for years until I turned 10. I still had flashbacks to when I was on it. I asked my therapist Because she had my hospital records and everything. She said everything from when I was 9 to 1 year old has been deleted from the record. I asked her why? she didn't know. I was confused Wondering why they deleted it?. At That moment in time I slowly realized I might've been a test rat or something
When I talked about my AHHD medicine. To my therapist She was confused and wondering why I was talking about it I never knew until today she didn't know and nobody knew. but that doctor and the people that worked with him knew.
My childhood was ruined by that medication I don't really know how to speak right. I don't know math. they put me in 6 th grade to cover up what they did but I knew what happened. They always put me in a room and told me commands too see if I did it. If I show no response they will write it down. Every new does. They will put me in that room to see if I will respond
