Loving Me

Awsome.. Not really.

London's outfit. Cute aint it lol. And i know i'm horrible at updating but college is hard work. Like seriously. But at the same time I love it.

I didn't make it back home until 12 that night. All I wanted to do was take a hot shower and sleep. Dropping everything at the door I walked into my bedroom turned on the light and almost peed on myself. Hameed was knocked out in my bed.

No matter how sexy he looked he had to go. He over reacted and my momma always said correct it when it first happens or it'll continue. With that in my mind I started shaking him.

"Hameed! Hameed! Get up stupid I know ya sleep aint that good." I said as i started shaking him harder.

"Ayee stop, leave me alone." He said with a thick layer of sleep coating his voice. After saying that he turned facing away from me and pulled the covers over him.

Nope, nope, nope. I grabbed my water bottle and dumped all of the water on his head. That got him up quick and in a hurry.

He hopped up. "Yo what the fuck is ya problem!"

"You, but now that you're up grab ya stuff so you can leave." I said while walking into the bathroom to wrap my hair. Then hop into the shower. Getting out I noticed he was still in my room only this time he was shirtless and sitting up watching tv.
"Hameed seriously get out. I don't feel like dealing with you right now." I said while grabbing my underwear and a big t shirt.

"You the one who said we needed to talk. I'm here so lets talk. Then maybe i'll dick you down to get rid of your little attitude you call yourself having."

I let out a frustrated groan. "Leave hameed! I don't want to talk right now. I'm exhausted and I just want to sleep."

"Ard, we can do that too. Come on." He said while lifting the sheets that I noticed he had changed.

"You know what. Never mind." I said as I was walking into my spare bedroom. I was just about to doze of when Hameed came in. "Get out."

"I am don't worry." When he said that I thought he was actually about to leave. Thats until he picked me up bridal style and carried me to my room. I didn't even say anything. I just got back up and went into the spare room again. This continued until he came in the spare room and layed down with me.

"Get out Hameed damn! You always fucking playing!" I said loudly while trying to push him off the bed.

"Who you yelling at? Better go on with the little attitude. Now stop pushing me and go to sleep. Its too late for all that dumb shit man." He thought he was checking me but not today. I was fed up with him right now.

This time I quickly walked to my room and locked the door. Not a minute later he was there yelling. "OPEN THE FUCKING DOOR YO! Now!"

Whelp somebody was angry, but I didn't care. Until we talked about this attitude and I got an apology I would ignore him. He continued to knock for almost an hour. It could have been more but I fell alseep.
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Waking up in the morning I was thoroughly annoyed. It was too early. I was glad that today at the hospital I would be shadowing the head doctor of pediatrics. Especially since the patients were cute and she was so down to earth.

I decided to put on another one of my cartoon charector scrubs. This time I decided on a doc mcstuffins one (dont judge me because I know who she is I have a baby sister lol). With a plain pair of black dansko's, my pandora bracelet, famous stud earrings and my hobo mcm black bag I was ready to hop in the shower then get dressed.

After getting dress I unwrapped my hair. Combing out my straight long weave with a side part I was cute and ready to go.

Not seeing Hameed in the hallway I guessed he left. Good. Walking into my kitchen guess who was wrong. Me nigga (shalissa voice lol sorry). We started at each other for a minute until I turned away and continued on my merry way.

"So you just gonna ignore me?"

Yes. Yes I am. I wanted to say but I continued with getting my yogurt out then grabbing a spoon. Thats until he snatched it out of my hand. Guess i'll be stoping at dunkin donuts.

I grabbed my bag, keys and phone and proceeded to walk out the door. He's following me! Just great.

"So you just gonna ignore me? Forreal? Thats childish as fuck b."

Guess who last name was Mrs. Childish today? Ding ding ding me! I really wasn't going to budge either. I'm not going to sit around and take someone's bull shit.

Pulling the front door opened he slammed it closed. I stomped my foot childish I know but really this man doesn't give up.

"Hameed your gonna make me late for work seriously. Your not helping me get over this any faster. If anything your just showing me that you really do have a bad attitude."

"You wont even talk to me so I can apologize." He said while looking sad. Awwww.

"Words don't mean shit. Actions do. And until I can see for myself that your sorry I really don't want to be around you. Your not even my boyfriend Hameed so how could you get mad if I was seeing someone else. I'm not one of these dumb young girls thinking a bond means more than a tittle. I want it all because I deserve just that. Everything. So until you can control your attitude and get on the same page as me, meaning ASKING me to be your girlfriend. You can stop the communication between us." I said then squeezed through the door. I was serious about everything I said. I knew my worth. I was a good girl, in my first year of residency to become a doctor, I was faithful, I cooked and I was pretty. Men come in dozens so if one didn't want to treat me right i'd just have to continue looking for prince charming.

I guess I was so into my thoughts that I hadn't noticed I was already at the hospital. Going up to the pediatrics floor I greeted everyone then went to put my belongings away. Five minutes later Dr. Mitchells and I were entering our first patients room. It was a little girl who had broken her arm after getting hit by a car while chasing after her puppy. She was lucky but her poor puppy not so much. I started to check her vitals and made sure she wasn't in any pain. My day pretty much went like this just really busy.

I had actually skipped my lunch break to help out more. Especially since this is something I loved doing. I didn't leave the hospital until 9. Can we say overtime.

Deciding I wasn't in the mood to cook I ordered chinse. Walking into my house snow flake ran up to me. Bending down to rub her she started to lower her eyes. My lazy baby. She could fall asleep in a matter of seconds after you started to rub behind her ears or her belly. Entering my room I. Decided to take a quick shower before my food came. Just as I was putting on my slippers the door bell rang. Yessss food! I was so hungry. After paying the little chinse man I went into the living room to watch love and hip hop.

Yandy's hair always gives me life. But I hate peter and his baby momma's they do the absolute most. Like they sharing him. After a couple minutes of watching it snow flaked jumped on the couch. I guess me and my baby would be chilling together tonight.

A week later and I hadn't heard from Hameed at all. I checked his instagram and twitter and nothing. His last post was the day before our argument. I guess he wasn't sorry. Nor did I really mean that much to him if he wasn't willing to change. His loss. Tonight Miana and I were going out with two of her cousins. I enjoyed going out with them. We could have fun and still be classy instead of getting pissy drunk. Especially since I didn't drink. Maybe a shot here or there. But it wasn't really my thing.

Meeting up at Miana's everybody looked good. And I was so ready to let go. Since I would be driving I made Miana let me take her car in case one of them accidentally got car sick on the way home. No way would somebody be throwing up in my baby. Getting to the club we were let in with out a wait since her cousin Tasha was friends with the bouncer.

We all decided to get drinks and just scope out the club until gyptian's song wine slow came on. Everybody got hype. We took turns wining on each other. I was having so much fun. Thats until Tony popped up. My ex yup him.

Just fucking awesome. I try to get away from one dummy and another comes back.