It's back. that lonely feeling. I hate it. It hits hardest here at night. I have no friends anymore.. Quarantine begun and i was dropped.. It also hits hard when i have so much on my mind and no one to talk to because nobody cares or because i burden everyone..
I dreamt that dream again. The one where i refused to get off of the train tracks? I stayed there.. i wanted to stay.. I needed to... I hate these voices in my head, but right now they're all i have.
I cant talk to family. They would never understand. Oh yea, i'd probably be "faking my depression" again huh? Forget it. it's in the past. i miss her. the one true friend i did have no matter what. completely gone now because she has way more friends. i'm sorry im not good enough.. i'm sorry for burdening you, i'm sorry for calling, for texting. To all of you actually. Forgive me?
~me
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Dear Diary,
Non-Fictionlike i said, "dear diary." basically just how i feel because i have literally no one to talk to irl anymore.. i like to write anyways..
