Too much scared to take a risk.

02

Fuck, may na girlfriend sya? sabagay ang pogi niya tapos ang tangkad pa,naunahan lang ako. Ewan ko ba bakit pa ako nagtanong, nakakahiya. Masyado akong malandi,yan tuloy napala ko.

Umalis kami pagkatapos kong magsorry sa lalaki.I felt embarrassed and guilty. May jowa pala yung tao,pero sayang di ako yon duh.

"Sayang gurl, may jowa pala" she chuckled.

"Oo teh, ekis pag may jowa" I nodded.

Dumeretso na lang kami sa room at hinayaan ko na lang ang nangyari. But I felt weird, I don't know why I'm sad right now. Although it's just a crush. Ganito ba feeling pag nagkagusto ka sa isang tao. Crush na nga lang meron ako,bokya pa.I sighed.

When we were in the classroom I immediately went to my some friends to talk about what happened earlier. Para akong bata na nagsusumbong sa nanay dahil inagawan ako ng candy.

"Guys, I have a chika" I said and looked excited.

"Go gurl, share it with us" Cleo said and also looked excited.

"I have a crush. He look so cute and also handsome. I think he's 3rd year college right now. I liked him. I'm going to asked his name but he's already left.So I'm just asked one of his friend but I found out that he have already girlfriend" I said.

"So, what are you going to do?  sambit ni Carol habang nakataas ang kilay niya.

"Oo nga" singit naman ni Sofia.

"Gurl, 3rd year college pa lang yon! Child abuse ka" Cleo said while laughing so hard.

"And he also have a girlfriend siz" sabi naman ni Audrey.

Oo nga, why I'm telling this to them. I know that he already have a relationship. Maybe I'm still mad because this is my first time liking someone who doesn't have a chance to like me back.Well,nasanay kasi ako na ako yung hinahabol ng mga kalalakihan. I realized that I wouldn't anticipated earlier and i didn't have to tell all of this bullshit to them because I already know that this is wrong.Although it's just a crush.

But they also want to know duh!

"Uhm.... I don't know, nevermind na lang guys" I giggled.

"Oo hayaan mo na lang yon Mika, crush lang yon marami ka namang lalaki eh" Cleo said while smiling.

"Duh anong lalaki ka dyan!" I rolled my eyes and went to my chair

Totoo naman, marami akong kalandian but it's just a fling.Hindi ko sila type, gusto ko lang may makausap.Siguro nga tama sila. At tsaka may jowa na siya kaya kailangan hayaan ko na lang sila, crush lang naman yon.

Kinalimutan ko na lang ang nangyari kanina, it's already 5:45 malapit na ang uwian. We went home too early because we have a event tomorrow in school. Together with different courses so maybe it's start around 6:00 in the morning to 6:00 pm.What a tiring day.

Next morning, I just woke up around 6:00 am. I bet they're already start the event. It's okay to be late, sanay naman na sila sakin. Since event lang today, I just wear a pants and black croptop with a white shoes. And also I put simple makeup on my face.

It's already 7:15 am, so I decided to leave na. Pagkapunta ko sa campus, naguumpisa na sila. Nagtataka ako kung bakit puro kulay blue,red,yellow and green lang ang nakikita ko. I tilted my head and guessing what's happening. I'm just the one who wear a black color.

I went to our spot. Since every section and courses have a each spots. Pagkarating ko nagulat sila kung bakit ganito ang suot ko.Hindi ko mapinta ang mga mukha nila.

"Anong course mo teh?" Cleo said while laughing.

"Siraulo ka talaga Mika, batas kaba dito?" sambit naman ni Ella na mukhang kanina pa andito.

"What are you trying say?" I asked.

"Gurl, may color coding tayo dito" sabi agad ni Jojo.

"Red sa atin siz,not black" Audrey said.

Omg I don't know that there is a color coding. Oh I guess I just didn't listen yesterday on orientation.But it's okay I already wore it na eh.

"Share mo lang?" I asked Cleo while smiling sarcastically.

"Hakdog" he shrugged.

I'm with Ella right now so we decided to roamed around. Ako nga lang talaga ang nakaitim na shirt. para akong galing sa ibang school. But it's okay I don't care about them. Pumunta na nga kami sa canteen para kumain. After that, umikot na lang ulit kami.

Habang naglalakad may mga babaeng naguusap sa harap namin.I guess they're 2nd year college students.

"Oo nga beh, ang pogi nya" sambit na isang babae.

"May jowa na kaya siya?" tanong naman ng isang kasama niya.

Dumeretso na lang kami at hindi ko na lang pinansin ang mga sinasabi nila. Baka isipin chismosa ako at mapaaway pa ako.

Nagulat na lang ako ng tinakip ako ni Ella. Ewan ko kung bakit ganito itsura neto, mukhang excited.

"Teh si ano oh" she whispered.

"Sino teh? I said "Sino bang tinitingan mo dyan"

Natulala agad ako at ang bilis ng tibok ng puso ko. I glared him for a few minutes. He was wearing a blue shirt and maong pants with a white shoes. He's so hot with his ootd. I think he's already made my day. He's so perfect.I smirked

"Omg si crush...." I whispered while smiling.

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