[TFBOYS] 2023-Nonfiction Growth (English Translation) [COMPLETED]

Part 3.1.1 People (Wrting about Life and Family) - Karry

A Teenager named Karry Wang is a little Homesick

Without the chance encounter seven years ago, maybe I will be an ordinary teenager. I will study, take an exam, find a job after graduation, go to KTV to sing Jay Chou 's song in my spare time, and will never become a goodwill ambassador of the United Nations Environment Program, or go on the CCTV Spring Festival Gala.

During the promotion of "The Great Wall", a reporter asked me about my schedule. I talked about the arrangements for one day: I arrived at the hotel at 1 am, washed and slept; I got up at 10 o'clock to make up, understand the press conference process, and prepared related content;  On the red carpet backstage, attend the press conference to participate in exclusive interviews and group interviews; go to the airport street to shoot, wait for the flight, take the opportunity to return to Changsha; enroll for the college entrance examination, study/practice English on the way. I am busy all day, many people think it is hard, but I am used to this kind of life.

I feel a little sorry for my family.  Every time I go home, it's a hurried trip. I just eat, sleep, study, and spend little time with them. Even if I have a rare rest, the family sits on the sofa and watches TV, and I don't know what to say.  "Anything happen during filming" "New job obligations?"  Those doesn't seem to be topics to talk about with mom and dad.

I know in my heart that they care about my study and life, but it is really difficult for me to say something special and considerate.  In fact, those sentences lie in my heart, clinging tightly to the mucous membrane of my heart. Those words  would obviously be enough to make the family feel relieved, but it  refuse to slip to my lips anyway.

Before going to Beijing to study, the longest period of time I stayed at home was three months before the college entrance examination.  Almost all work were pushed away, and I went back to Chongqing to review in seclusion/darkness.  I hadn't told them I was coming back yet, but guess they should be very happy.  I was like a migratory bird that stopped flying, and finally stayed beside them. Like an ordinary 17-year-old boy, I had the trouble of going to school and the endless test papers.

When I studied Zhu Ziqing's "Back" before, I always felt that the teacher was overly sensational.  There are so many tears and emotions to send farewell between loved ones, all are daily trivial and silent.  The sentence "I'm going to buy some oranges, you stay here, don't walk around" reads so ordinary and there is no deep meaning in the interpretation after class.

But when I was 18 years old, when I heard the letter my mother read to me, I suddenly understood the feelings between my family.  I rarely cried, and I was more afraid of crying on stage, but I couldn't help turning around that day to calm down.  Even family members who get along day and night need time to understand each other and become familiar with their own ways of expressing emotions.  My parents and I never had the memory of climbing the railway and buying oranges, but there were too many farewells and reunions.  From 13 to 18 years old, in five years, they left countless times and returned many times, they all waited without complaint.  Compared with me who is busy, they may feel more lonely at home. I suddenly understood the distress and love that my mother showed between the lines, and I suddenly understood why "Back" can become a famous prose.

When I was young, my parents were very busy with work. I went to preschool when I was two and a half years old.  From small to large, I am not the kind of person who is good at talking about things. I have always liked to be more quiet than lively.  Mom and Dad are not the kind of parents who can say "son, I love you".  When I was young, my dad often stayed up late, his health was not good, and his family was not rich.  I learned to be obedient very early on, and I don't want to cause them trouble.  Probably for me, being sensible and obedient is what gives them comfort. If they can be relieved, even if I suffer a little, then it's nothing.