Die, is a sweet word. Leave is painful. Love only leads to hatured when the cards end. No matter what those and they show. The truth is lies and lies are truth. Do you understand? You can't. No one can. Not I. Perfection is sadness written on it. I am only, me. Haru, no one else. Those deaths, those lives. Why do they torture me? They don't haunt me, they kill me through the inside. I wonder how I actually feel about it. I never understand it. They say it will be better only the ones who don't suffer, but those who do understand. They understand that they'll never be understood.
I lie awake on my bed. The cold air slaps my face. I remain still, a sweet word. Can be a horrible word, but they don't notice. Never, do they? I looked out the window and see white fog, frost covered the window. I looked at the ceiling. The door was slammed open "Haru! Are you alright!?" I heard that voice I remained still as she hugged- squeezed me in her arms. "Are you sad? Are angry? Lonely? Sick?" she asks I closed my eyes she looked at me and thought I was asleep. Because she shook me, "Haru! Wake up!" she announces I open my eyes her hands held my arms like twigs. "Are you alright?" she demands I nod, but sad that she won't understand and she is a girl.....but has parents. I nod, but my head hanged downward. She hugged me or squeezed me "Your parents.....it will be alright." she whispered I then felt pure anger at what she had said. I stayed like this until she stopped, I stood up and left the room. Although everything was a blur what my parents said. There promise to me was a lie, but I have to grow out of it. They aren't alive, they are dead. I reached two large doors and pushed them to enter the cold room. I sat down on the large chair in front of my desk. I sat there, my hands gripped the sides of the chair. They one door opened someone came inside, Ciel. "Mistress aren't you suppose to be in bed, resting?" Ciel asks me "Return Isabella to her mansion, I do not want guests today." I say and look up Ciel was three or two inches taller than I. ".....yes" Ciel bowed and left the room. I looked out the window to see the garden. I grabbed my short hair in my hand, I don't want to know about my parents, not anymore. But that isn't possible it can effect many things. " I have brought paperwork, mistress." I turn around a bit stunned "What?" I ask William as he sets down a stack of papers "Paperwork is what I have brought in for you, because you have undone work and have no guest to attend so I believe that you should do paperwork." William says I stare at him and begin to laugh. This one demon doesn't care if I'm upset, but happy. He smiled "May I ask what is humorous?" William asks "Nothing, only you're correct." I say I continue to laugh. What a sweet word.
