Weird stuff 🙈

Mincraft

.* existential shit ahead *.

People are gonna say it's stupid, but Minecraft keeps making me cry from all the nostalgia.
There's all the dogs you tamed, they are still waiting for you to came back & have an adventure with them...
All those time you wandered the whole world...
"I'll see you tomorrow", "yea man, goodnight".... last time online 5 years ago.... goodbye old friends...
Those cities you built that were never finished...
Constantly trying to go back home, knowing there is no home to go back to.
I can't explain it but the feeling that you are so lonely is this entire world, where you can do whatever you want. One day you left, you've not gone back, you've forgotten, & the world still remains lost in time, just waiting for you to return.
Oofers I've been crying too much, I don't know I guess I just miss the times when my depression wasn't severe, when friends were forever. And now coronavirus is here, it really feels like the end of time, I mean what is there left to do?
Everything feels so meaningless & you can't help to wonder wether we'll make it out of this pandemic. Even if we do I'll still struggle with my depression & I just don't feel anything, like my tears aren't even mine, I want to die but what's the point of dying or living?
I want to have a dream but I never can, I don't see myself living that long...

Alien