||This is my first gay ship fanfiction I ever wrote. So i got this pic on google idk who owns it....Probably CBS.||
~Dinozzo's POV~
I found myself getting distracted at work. Whenever he walked into the room, my heart would start beating louder. I stopped joking about the women I've been with. I started staying later and later. In the office was the only place I could see him.
His sharp blue eyes floated my mind whenever I closed my eyes. I was noticing subtle things like how he would keep looking up from his work during the late hours, with eyes clouded with worry. I know I was losing weight. But it wasn't that bad, I think. Gibbs was perfect in everything. I couldn't help the feelings. I tried. I really did, but I was too late. I had fallen shamelessly for the marine that was my boss.
Two years, four months, and fifteen days since I started to realize my feelings, I was staying later than I usually do. The water heater broke again and I was trying to avoid embarrassing myself by asking Gibbs if I could stay at his place. By now I couldn't hide how much weight I had actually been losing. I really didn't want Gibbs to point it out behind closed doors. But on the other hand, Gibbs house was very relaxing and calming.
"Tony why are you still here?" Gibbs Voice reaches my ears causing me to look up, to see him packing up. "Don't wanna go home boss." I state looking back at my computer screen. "Water heater broken again?" "Maybe" I sheepishly replied, looking up at the man who now stood in front of my desk. "Pack up Dinozzo, you can stay at my place till it's fixed." he said. "Really?" "no Dinozzo, I'm wasting my breath on you." I look down again. "Oh" All my hopes that maybe I could confess to him washed away. "Oh" I crocked, forcing tears back. "Dinozzo I'm being serious, you can stay at my place." Hearing that I brighten up. Quickly logging off of my computer and grabbing my gear. "Ok, I'm ready." Gibbs grunts in approval and starts to walk to the elevator. "So, I'm following you...""no, you're coming in my car. And we're stopping to eat." Gibbs interrupts. "Alright." I cautiously say stepping in next to him. As soon as the doors closed, Gibbs turned the emergency stop on. He turned to me and the worry was all over his face and not just his eyes. His eyes....the crystal orbs shined as if there were tears gathering. "Why?" "Why what boss?" I knew what he was talking about, and honestly I don't even know why. I just did. "Tony, why are you doing this to your body? I don't understand." I looked away ashamed at myself. "I....I don't know, boss." "Dinozzo, look at me." He demands. I turn my head back to him. Tears had started to fall down his face. "Boss, I really don't know why." Thinking now, I realize that after I got the plague, he had stopped headslapping me(hard), and he had stopped being hard on me instead he'd been harder on McGee. Then after Kate died, he was there to comfort me. At the time I didn't really think about it, but now seeing Gibbs crying I realized how worried Gibbs really was and how much he cared. I was at a loss for words. It was my fault he was Crying. It was my fault any of this was happening. I wished that I could just tell him. To stop the tears. That's all I want.
"Gibbs, I...." I couldn't speak. I wanted to, but I just couldn't get them out. Because the 'What if's' started popping into my mind. "Tony, I can't continue to see you do this to yourself." "I love you way too much too." The last part was whispered, but I heard it. My heart swelled up and I found the world had stopped and was holding its breath waiting to see what happened next. I watched his eyes grow wide after he noticed what he had said.
It looked like he was wishing that I didn't hear him. So many things that were racing in my head a moment ago, vanished. Only to be replaced by two thoughts. Tell him how you feel and kiss him. I closed my eyes trying to make a decision. I reopened them to see Gibbs watching me. I give him a One-Of-A-Kind-Dinozzo smile. For I had made up my mind. I was going to let him help me. But first I had something to do. No words needed to be said. He loves me, that's all I need in this world. Him. Leroy Jethro Gibbs. With that thought in mind, I leaned in and kissed him.
