Boy{s} With Luv

3)

Namjoon

I steal glances at Jin while he's reading. I think it's so cute when he reads- I mean, when is he not cute? He sometimes smiles, and in serious parts, his eyes well up. He is always so into whatever he does, be it reading, singing, or cooking. He's reading Crime and Punishment right now, which is one of my favorite Dostoyevsky novels. I read it a few years ago and I had lent it to him after he asked for recommendations.

In his connection with his book, he spills his glass of apple juice. He knocks it over, and it gets on my new pair of white jeans. The juice bleeds into an unfortunate place on lap. I reach over and take a tissue, but it seems Jin beat me to it. His face is bright red and I can't help but smirk. Despite his confident facade, his nervousness is obvious. He notices my expression and apologizes. Why is he like this? Why can't I read him? He was so cool in the hotel room, but he snapped at me earlier on. And now he's apologizing for such a small accident? I give a small smile and try not to let my disappointment show.

"It's fine, I'll just change my pants. I have an extra pair of sweats in my suitcase. I'll be back in a minute," I say, rushing to the bathroom.

I hurry and change. I feel a tingling sensation in my heart, and somewhere else as well. When I come back, he is already asleep. He's curled up in a little ball, and is leaning on the arm rest that separates our seats. I sit down carefully, and he adjusts himself in his sleep to lean on me. I miss this- both of us just being comfortable in each other's arms. What changed? I've always had feelings for him and we've always been close. I wish we could just go back to normal...

I close my eyes and drift off into the safety of my dreams and Jin's arms in mine.

Jin and I were trainees again. We went to a cafe that is open 24 hours a day. I glance at my watch as we enter, and it's 01:00. He finds a table for two, while I order. I know his order by heart. A few minutes later, we're sitting face to face. We look out at the starry night sky, and spill our hearts out. I gaze into his eyes, and I see my universe. My world. My moon. His pink cheeks are illuminated by the dim yellow light, and he gets shy. His soothing voice never fails to surprise me. I love every part of him. This moment is so perfect. We get sunk into conversation, and we get closer and closer. We look at each others' lips. The conversation comes to a halt, and we lean in to where our noses are touching.

"I love you so much, Kim Seokjin. Never forget that."

Our lips come into contact and my world falls apart. Our bodies are one. I let out a small groan, and Jin pulled away. I look at him for an explanation. It looks like he's trying to say something, but nothing is coming out of his mouth.

"What, Jin?"

"Wake up!"

My eyes flash open. The plane has landed already and the passengers are slowly trickling out. I find that I am holding on to Jin's arm like my life depends on it. I mutter an apology and let go, and quickly get my suitcase. I'm so embarrassed right now- why do I keep having these dreams? This felt so real. I wanted it to be real. Why can't I tell him already? I've always held back because the group needed a focused leader, not some lovesick guy who can't keep his emotions in check. But why do I need to choose?

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Jin, 3 hours later

I love Panda Express. I love touring in the US. I love visiting Panda Express in the US. Did I mention I love Panda Express? I need a distraction, and what better way to distract myself than with food? We decided to split up into two groups- the rap line and vocal line. I'm still thinking about the flight- from Namjoon constantly looking at Yoongi to me being a total klutz and accidentally touching his you-know-what, to hearing him moan my name while sleeping. I thought I heard him say he loved me? I'm very confused right now, and I think we both need some distance to clear our heads, which is why I proposed these groups. We are going to Panda Express, while the rap line is going to the hotel and checking in. I wonder what the room designations are. 

It's not like Taehyung, Jungkook, and Jimin mind, they're practically soulmates. They wouldn't notice if the rest of us disappeared. If nothing else, I want a friendship like that with Namjoon. 

We walk into Panda Express and get into line to order. I get a few notifications on my phone, and I see that my mom had texted me, as well as Namjoon.

Hey sweetie! Did you land yet? Call me when you can! Love you!

Shoot, I forgot to text my parents. As much as I love them, they always get incredibly nervous when I travel. I used to get bad nightmares about flying. Surprisingly, I didn't have any this time.

Love you more, mom. I'll call you when we get to the hotel room.

I open Namjoon's message then.

do you wanna room together? we r making room assignments and hobi + yoongi wanna room together, and the other 3 told me they wanted to take the bigger room. i can try to see if they have separate beds xx

"Oooo, who are ya texting, Jin?" Jungkook asks smugly.

"My mom, you perv," I reply quickly, closing out of his text. 

"I would've thought you would be texting someone else, with the way you two were cuddling on the plane," Jimin said with a smirk.

I turned bright red.

"I d-don't know what you are talking about," I stutter.

"Liar, you were all over him. You guys are obviously closer than the rest of us, the way you two were cuddling," Taehyung remarks. "If I didn't know any better, I'd say you have a tiny crush on him, and him you. Plus, you stutter when you lie." Dang Taehyung, always being so perceptive. 

"I don't stutter!! And I'm not lying! He doesn't care about me any more than he does you guys, he's just doing his job. Plus, why do y'all want to room together? Now I'm stuck with him!"

"If you really want to, we can switch rooms. But ask yourself- why do you want to avoid him? What did he do wrong? What are you so afraid of?" Taehyung asks. 

I guess I don't really have a choice.

anything is fine. as long as you don't steal my towel again.

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A/N) sorry for the crappy chapter, i wanted to update though. I don't really have an excuse except I'm lazy as heck. Anyway if anyone actually reads this, what is your favourite BTS era?