Mated & Blooded

Chapter 13

(Nikoli's POV)

It had been days since I saw my beloved with my eyes. It took all of my strength not to burst into that dilapidated place she was staying in and blood with her. I knew it would kill me, but I was beginning to wonder if that wasn't the perfect way to go. It would make me less of a coward and at least I would have felt her flesh and kissed her lips before dying. I deserved that much didn't I? But that would hurt her, so instead I kept my distance and hid my emotions from her.

At first, feeling her emotions was a bit of a shock to me. I knew that once we were a blooded couple that we would always know exactly how each other felt. I hadn't expected to feel her emotions without blooding though. It's just that my beloved has such a strong soul. It had endured so much pain in its short lifetime that it had grown stronger than the average soul. That however left me in a strange place. I was able to feel everything my beloved felt. I knew when she was happy, scared, agitated and angry.

Most days my beloved was happy and content. That made me happy, since I knew she had such a hard life before coming to BlueRidge. I was glad to know that the wolf could keep her happy and that her life would be okay without me. He wasn't the worse thing in the world; he also wasn't best thing either. He was a little too pushy and controlling. He didn't recognize that my beloveds soul needed to be more carefree. Instead he worried too much for her safety and kept her tied up in knots. Well, at least he didn't hurt her like the wolves from her past and for that alone he had my vote.

Today my beloved wasn't happy or content. She was actually agitated and nervous. Not the kind of agitation she felt when the wolf was being too dominant with her, this was different, it was laced with fear. That was something I didn't like at all. I never wanted my beloved to suffer the kind of fear that used to rule her life.

Suddenly I realized she was physically getting father away from me. Her soul was screaming at me to find her and claim her. She needed me. I knew that she had to be suffering physically just as I was. It can be pure agony to be separated from your beloved. I tried to force the pain out of my mind. I knew it was better for her to experience it now than after I was gone for good. It was the gentler easier way to break our bond. I knew that with a little more time the separation would be easier for her. Eventually her soul would stop calling for me on this plateau and wait until we both moved into the ever after.

Then I remembered her old pain. The pain she had all over her soul before she even met me. She had been used and abused. She spent her life in a forced solitude. While we vampires were by nature solitary creatures, she was a wolf and being alone had caused her severe pain. Without thought, I found myself following her as she moved closer to the Northern Star territory.

Northern Star, those were the wolves who had hurt my beloved in the first place. I couldn't understand why would she be returning to them? She should not be going anywhere near those nasty wolves. I felt the physical pain get more pronounced in my beloved. I hated that she ached, maybe now was not the time for a separation after all. I just needed to get a little closer so that her pain would stop.

Vampires are said to have the ability to run well over one hundred miles per hour without breaking a sweat. Before today I would have said that was stretching the truth, now however I realized with the proper motivation one hundred miles per hour was in fact achievable. Actually, I know that I was moving faster than that. I managed to catch up to my beloved and her wolf traveling companion in less than thirty minutes.

I could feel my beloved was very nearby. Her emotions were coming to me with crisp clarity. I had intended to snatch her from the wolf and find out exactly why she was returning to Northern Star when I was suddenly overwhelmed by her feelings of hunger. The feeling was so similar to blood lust that I was completely mesmerized.

I could recall being a young vampire and being taken over by blood lust. Why would my beloved be experiencing blood lust? Maybe this was a side effect of our souls briefly touching. After all to my knowledge; no vampire had ever had a wolf as a beloved.

I knew that I would be upon her in moments and slowed down so that I could see with my eyes what was going on. She was in the passenger side of the mustang that had been at BlueRidge. The male wolf was kneeling just outside of her car door. His wrist was extended and he was pressing it towards her mouth. Then, I watched in amazement as my beloved did the most unexpected thing I could imagine. She bit into the male wolf's wrist and began drinking his blood.

The instant the blood hit her mouth I knew I needed to hide. I was experiencing the same erotic feeding sensations as her. It was intensive and explosive all at the same time. I quickly hid myself behind a large tractor trailer. I knew if anyone saw me in this condition they would immediately panic and start a hunt. My fangs were extended, my face was drawn gaunt and my eyes were sure to be blood red. I needed to stay out of sight. I didn't have time for humans to chase me around trying to kill me right now. I had a beloved that was experiencing something extremely unexpected.

I stayed well hidden and tried to calm myself. Sharing a feeding with my beloved was wreaking havoc on my system. Slowly, the feeling started to pass and I knew that she had completed the feeding. I however was still a mess. How was this possible? What have I done to my beloved? I was going to have to find out what this meant. I was not going to leave this earth not knowing if my beloved would need me. I was going to have to seek out my elders to see if they could help me make sense of what was going on.

The tricky part, keeping an eye on her while getting the information from them. I didn't like it, but for now I would have to leave her in the wolf's care. Maybe not for much longer though.