Sometimes you make me feel like a little girl again, oh so woefully naive
Wanting to impress you because you seemed too cool for the others
Dimpled smile and few words,
Blending into the walls unnoticed
It took me several years to realize the distance you kept was more than physical
But you're better at playing the game now-
Smile, laugh and tell them what they want to hear
Falling for your coy facade
You don't lie, you're just good at hiding
How long have you been an outsider, looking in? Or have we just been playing charades at these events for so long that I didn't notice truth staring at me in the face?
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How was it like when they ripped your flesh apart and carved you a new body
To wear, to call your own?
Did it leave an ache in your chest
To put behind what you once knew?
How did they pull your beliefs into a different direction
Whose doing was it-
Their eloquent words or your intellect?
Tell me they changed your mind
Did they take away your heart and replace it with a new one too?
Did you let them take it willingly or maybe it was in the stars
Your own undoing
Rebirth
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You remind me to
Never judge a book by it's cover
The more pages you read, the more you realise how little you actually know
Content with my perception of reality
I guess I got uncomfortable when you crawled out of the box of assumptions I had built around you
Standing on opposing ends of different ideals
The way this story plays out is a pattern I'm familiar with
First comes me, drawn to people who
like setting fires to the little world I inhibited
Curiosity kills the cat and sometimes I think
I play with the rocky waters more than I should
Is this self sabotage or an aversion to change-
It's both
And I'm just good at self denial
Just good at letting regret and guilt seep into my bloodstream like
an intoxicating poison
Then silently blame others for it
Even though my constricted chest
tells me that
I need to be better at letting things go
Especially when they no longer hold truth to me
YOU ARE READING
letters to you
شِعرthis is a midnight compilation of inner thoughts and half forgotten dreams, letters from my heart to people I know or have yet to meet. this is dedicated to all the living souls that have impacted my life, good and bad. this is for the people in my...
