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Toxic/Fake Friends

Warning: Toxic/Fake Friends, Suicide thoughts.

So this story is about 3 people so let's call them
J, D, and Q.
Me, J,D, and Q we're friends since 2nd grade. I trusted them and I told them everything. But that would soon come back to bite me. One random day in 5th grade, I walk into school like I normally do. I put my backpack away and get all the stuff I needed for class. I tried to talk with J, because our lockers were close to each other.
"Hey J! Did you Avengers: Infinity War?" I asked, not knowing what was going to soon be reality.
J didn't respond. He just stared at me and left with his stuff. I was confused. The same thing happened with Q.

(I later found out it was a joke but like, WHY WOULD YOU JOKE ABOUT THAT?!)

However, D stuck by with me. D was my last friend. One day, during P.E, J, D and Q were talking. I didn't know about what because I tried to stay away from them as much as I could. But there was one thing I heard.

'I don't care about A/N.'

I thought we were friends D. I thought you cared. I thought we could trust eachother. I THOUGHT YOU WOULD STICK BY ME, but no. You didn't. And that, was the last straw. I won't say all the details (because they bring back bad memories) but basically, J,D, and Q turned the entire class against me. And I allowed it. I thought "Well if they made it this far, they deserve to win? Don't they?"

So I officially gave up. I let them do everything they wanted to me. I was an emotionless husk of a human being that did nothing other than get beat verbally by people I thought were my friends.

Until, I stopped. I fought back. I said  No. I said I wasn't going to be pushed around anymore. I got new friends, that actually appreciated me. And they wouldn't treat me like J,D and Q did.
Then J,D and Q apologized for what happened and said it was 'Just a joke.' And that 'They didn't mean it'. I regretted what I did next.

I said I forgave them.

Why did I regret this? Because they betrayed me again only 2 months later.
However, I think that story needs it's own chapter.

See you in the next one!