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You Were Beautiful // Sunshine [Edited]

"You Were Beautiful // Sunshine"
inspired by: DAY6 'You Were Beautiful' (Every Day6 February)
STRAY KIDS 'SUNSHINE' (Levanter)
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"This doesn't mean that I don't love you, it's just that I had enough of this. You were So Beautiful, Nabi"

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H a n • J i s u n g
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For weeks, I didn't enter Nabi's room. Thinking life decisions, Why did I decided to love her, I know, Love can't be described but what am I feeling? I'm so confused. Am I just thinking to end this? To end my relationship to the girl I love? I'm tired. I'm so tired of fighting, arguing and besides, JYP-nim was against our relationship.

/Flashback

"TELL ME IF YOU AND MY DAUGHTER IS IN A RELATIONSHIP OR YOU ARE OUT OF THE COMPANY" I flinched by his shout as I lowered my head. I gently nodded, I was so scared. Though the hospital walls were soundproof, the words he said were said loud enough to break millions of hearts, including mine.

What if I didn't answer his question? What will happen to Nine or None? It will break the hearts of millions of STAYs, even my group members' hearts will be broken. Even Nabi's. Even her. Even the one I love. I trained so Hard for this and It will just go to waste like it is nothing. "Yes sir, I'm in a relationship with your daughter, I'm sorry for intervening her and her fake relationship. I'll do my responsibilities alone and not as Nabi's boyfriend. I promise to break up with her as soon as possible."

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Yet, I don't have a courage to talk to her. My tears silently appeared. My cheeks were puffed up, while Jeongin, who has been at watching me all day sat beside me trying to make me calm down.

"Are you going to talk to Nabi?" Jeongin says, as he patted my back, trying to comfort me. I stood up. Finally had the courage to talk to her. I opened the door, revealing Felix, Minho and Woojin who was talking to Nabi.

Week, as her fragile body was in need of help, her life was depends on the oxygen tank she used to breathing. "Jagiya" She looked at me and smiled, but soonw as replaced by sadness. She was probably worried because I looked like a Zombie. "Jagi, what's wrong?" She asked as Woojin gestures that they will wait outside. "Everything Jagi, Everything is wrong."

"Your Dad found out, he requested me to break up with you or my contract will be suspended. Nabi, I still love you. This doesn't mean that I don't love you, it's just that I had enough of this. You were Beautiful, Nabi, You were so beautiful." I turned away from her, my footsteps were heavy, I went outside the room and ran.

I didn't knew what is on my mind. I want to run away from my responsibilities. I want to escape. I want to hide in my comfort zone. Crying, asking help from the insides of my soul. As it was already the crack of dawn, I didn't knew where I was, Trees surrounded me, I feel like I'm in Narnia or some type of thick Forrest. I stood still, I guess I'll stay here for a while.

I took out my notebook, where I often write lyrics for us. And that's how I've written 'Sunshine'. It is because of her.

"Even in a noisy city, ye ye ye

Do whatever you want, ye ye ye
Sit in the sunshine and close your eyes
Look at me for a second
The boring stories from my head wash away
After the fight in my head
Now sit in a very peaceful paradise
And come out to tell me a secret
I smile a little while answering questions
I've never known before
Just chillin' and relaxing
Like you're talking to an old friend
Have a pretty good time healing until the night
Now, go where I want you to go
You don't have to worry about it anymore yeah
Everything around you is in slow mode
Everything is quiet
My worries blow up
Leave it all to the wind
Now I'll do it yeah
Even in a noisy city ye ye ye
D

o whatever you want ye ye ye
Sit in the sunshine and close your eyes
Look a me for a second
Even in a noisy city ye ye ye
Do whatever you want ye ye ye
Sit in the sunshine and close your eyes
Look a me for a second
As soon as you can see
As soon as you're attracted to them without saying anything
Walk on endlessly
Walk on the road that stretches like a red carpet
Sometimes I get discouraged by the unfriendly gaze
What's the problem?
Just ignore it and go
I don't care what anyone else says
Wherever you go
What's the big deal?
Why? Where?
Everything around you is in slow mode
Everything is quiet
My worries blow up
Leave it all to the wind
Now I'll do it yeah
Even in a noisy city ye ye ye
Do whatever you want ye ye ye
Sit in the sunshine and close your eyes
Look a me for a second
Even in a noisy city ye ye ye
Do whatever you want ye ye ye
Sit in the sunshine and close your eyes
Look a me for a second
This is a place with quiet sound ye ye ye
Quiet except for the sound of our breaths ye ye ye
Everything that hurts me is blown away and fade away ye
Should I fly to the sky
Where the clouds are swimming? Ye ye ye
Even in a noisy city ye ye ye
Do whatever you want ye ye ye
Sit in the sunshine and close your eyes
Look a me for a second
Even in a noisy city ye ye ye
Do whatever you want ye ye ye
Sit in the sunshine and close your eyes
Look a me for a second"

I closed my notebook, You Were Beautiful Nabi.