Meet me in Paris

H35

Home.
The start and the end.

If you've never witnessed a sunrise from an airplane window, you're missing out. There's something inspiring about feeling small and irrelevant.
Im not sure the purpose of me writing this introduction. Until recently i didn't even consider myself someone people could take advice from. I think the idea that any moment could be my last made me want to get the most out of this existence.

As i am typing this, its seven thirty in the morning and im sitting on row 36H of an Air Canada plane overlooking the sunrise before landing in Paris.
But don't misunderstand me. It is neither a vacation trip or a business trip.
I am just going home.
I've always wondered what rock bottom felt like. For some it could be the death of a loved one, or maybe an illness or when everything is going wrong and out of control.
If you must know, this week felt like rock bottom to me.
I don't think it really was though. Life has a weird way to teach me to be grateful because every time i think "it couldn't get worse" it actually does get worse.
So before we dive into my discovery of rock bottom and the ironic meaning of this life, here are a few facts you must know about me.
I might sound terrible but that's because i constantly change feelings and emotions. I tend to overthink a lot which leads me to confusion. Bare with me.
By the time this book is starting, there is a global pandemic and im actually terrified of catching that virus as i am writing this.
Yes, i have mommy and daddy issues but for the sake of this book, i'll put those aside at the moment and focus on the lessons i can share.
I am not really claiming to be a know-it-all. But I truly do believe that life is making me it's punching bag recently and I thought if there were something to come out of it, might as well share it with others.

Im not sure myself the whole meaning behind the pain, the emotions and the things we go through. Im not sure if the pain really is worth it and I can't guarantee you that it will get better. Im not sure it does myself. So I hope my journey will answer some questions you have that I wish someone answered for me.