HEARTBREAK

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Hi, so it's been months since nagbreak kami ng ex ko. Pero, what I am feeling since day one ng break up namin is still the same. I still kept on questioning myself what's wrong with me, and am I never enough to be loved by someone like him? 

I still cry to sleep. 

It is really exhausting. Tired na ako yes! But still, I am hopeful na sana everything will be alright between us again. I still beg for him to stay pero ayaw niya na talaga. Why do I need to feel this shit? I was very happy and contented kung anong meron kami noon, now? I feel so empty. 

I am tired.

I am really tired. This gives me anxiety. I always pray for myself na sana mag heal na ako and that I am able to move forward na and do what is needed to be done, such as yung case study ko. It's still pending, but here I am, thinking about him, writing my feelings dito to see if pouring this shitty feeling here might help me. I once read a blog about how to cope up with break ups, it says that I should write it in a journal para daw matransfer yung energy ng sadness mo sa pen and sa notebook, might as well do it here nalang. 

This is it for now muna :(