-screw me- el raval

6.

「finally! those boys are going to kill me one day.」her brothers were in bed finally and she plopped down on the sofa to let useless tv series numb her thoughts after an exhausting day.

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she almost dozed off when she heard something tap her window. she got up to shoo away the dove or whatever this was.

she opened the window but there was no bird. instead she felt a little pebble hit her forehead.>ouch!<

>sorryy..< she heard a voice coming from the street.

>t? what are you doing here?< she felt her heat beating faster.

>I want to talk. can I come up?<

>no way. it looks like shit.<

t scoffed and began to walk away.

>wait! I'll come down, give me a minute.<

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she looked different today, there was no hint of a smile in that otherwise so joyful face. y began to get nervous and started to fumble around in her pockets.

>what did I do?< t asked and looked directly into her eyes with a piercing gaze.

y couldn't answer and began to stammer with an open mouth >I ...I you..< but t interrupted her >I was nice right? I didn't say anything stupid. but still you keep avoiding and ignoring me feeding me stupid excuses.< she began to rattle down her speech.

y was unable to answer she didn't know what to say.

>and then you were with marco even though everybody knows what a fucker he is I mean really? he ditched my boyfriend. thrice.<

y was confused. >but that ..must've been five years ago. why are you so mad?< she began to stammer.

but t raged on >and now this bullshit is all I can think about. what did I ever do wrong to you?!<

>what is wrong with you? why are you yelling??<

>what did I do wrong?!<

>stop yelling my brothers are sleeping!!<

>what.did.I.do.wrong.?!<

>you called me disgusting!<

a thick silence spread between them.

>what?<

>the night you saw marco and me. when you went back to you friends your boyfriend made fun of me "she wants her" and then you said "stop it that's disgusting". so stop fucking asking me what you did wrong and pretending like everybody doesn't know. and now leave! I'm going to bed!< tears had been welling up in her eyes. when y tried to turn around t stopped her with a smile. >everybody doesn't know what?< she asked.

y felt anger burn up in her and her stupid smile >THAT I HAVE A FUCKING CRUSH ON YOU, YOU STUPID BITCH! are you happy now?< t only smiled at her >GREAT! go tell all your friends now so you can call me disgusting again.<

>okay, I will.< t said in a soft voice before she pulled y into a kiss.

y felt her whole body light on fire in anger mixed with arousal. she wanted to shout at her but then she would have to stop kissing her and that was impossible.

the kiss was heating up and began to become more desperate. t released her lips only to kiss her neck roughly. but all that piled up anger made y push her against the wall harshly and kiss her more eager. she would give her something to tell her friends.

she pulled her inside, up the stairs and t followed without a word. she pushed her onto the bed and let out all of her sexual frustration, tension, longing and anger towards that one girl and she took it all with sweet moans. y shut off her brain and just did what felt right.

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she slowly began to think again. and now that all of the encouraging anger left her body she began to become soft and vulnerable. she turned away from t and whispered. >you can go now. venga! tell them.<

but t rolled over and hugged her from behind. >but then I would have to tell them I'm disgusting too.<

nothing made sense to y anymore. she turned around again to look at her in confusion. >what?<

>I tried to impress you. when you were watching me. but one day I fell because I got distracted and I was embarrassed and annoyed and rude. but you were so sweet trying to help me. we began to talk and that made me really happy. giving you 'lessons' brought us closer, I liked that. but that one time something changed and I don't know what. you started to avoid me ..that one night when I saw you with marco< she spat the name out as if it was a fly in her mouth. >my boys made it so obvious that I had a crush on you.. that was hella embarrassing.< t hid her face under her arm. >son said that. "uh she wants her". about me. and made a stupid dance or whatever that monkey does< she laughed. >and I told him to stop because that looked disgusting.< t touched y's cheek with a warm smile. >not you are disgusting. you are beautiful.<

>but ..what about son? isn't he ..mad?<

t laughed a wonderful laugh. >son? son is gay. we're only in a "relationship" to be an alibi, so his parents won't find out. he's my best friend.<

>ooooooooh. I see.< y said and felt like the most retarded person on earth. >fuck I was so stupid..<

>no I was stupid.< t laughed. >I just should've told you earlier. I'm sorry to make you feel bad. and angry.

even though that sex was amazing....< t added under her breath which resulted in a hit on her shoulder.

>don't EVER do that again you bitch.<

>I won't.< t laughed >this week.< and she quickly dodged the next hit that came for her.