You Saved Me ≫ Clifford AU

Heaven or Hell?

where am I?! why am I in the middle of the road? and am I bleeding...?!
I stand up and look at my bloody arms and lifeless body on the dirt road. As if out of nowhere the ambulance start running over to my body and start checking my paluse and putting me on a strecher with oxygen tubes in a mask on my mouth.
"Hello? Hello?!" I yell as I try to get one doctors attention. They just look at one another and tslk to the cops who arrested the man who was driving the car that apparently 'ran' me over. "Hello what happened to me? please answer me!" Nobody was answring me so I just hopped into the ambulance truck on it's why to the hospital.
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"Come on Michael keep up why don't you?!" I laughed as a 15 year old Michael Clifford was chasing me up to the cliff in the woods behind our school. Michael was a bit older than me, but we're in the same school.
"Aright Emma I'm coming calm down!" His thick aussie accent was much stronger than mine, my mother, Liz Hemmings said mine would get thicker as I grow older. As Michael started climbing up the cliff over looking the Sydney harbor, one of the roots he was holding started to snap.
"Emma! help me before I fall of and come back in my second life as a dog and bite you in the-" the root starts to come more out of the dirt it was put in as a seed. I roll my eyes and looks back from the beautiful beach view. "Yes Clifford?" I said with a giggle in my tone. I walked over to him and looked down as I gave him a little wave.
"This time won't you save me?" He said as he tried to hold onto a rock that later fell and shattered into dust as soon as it hit the rocks underneath the dirtish grass. I rolled my eyes and kneeled over and held my hand out. "come on you big dummy!" I almost yelled as the roots started to break almost in slow motion.
As I think about what happened after I blanked out, the doors opened taking my body, more like rushing to the emergency room. I quickly jump out of the van and close the door, running to check up with the officals rolling me into the hospital.
"she's loosing a lot of blood hurry!"
"What happened to her?" I hear the women at the front desk yell as she starts writing stuff dwn.
"car accident, she was standing in the middle of thr road and a drunk driver ran her over...."
I look at the man who just told the lady what happened as I slowly sink to the floor. I'm dead or on the verge of dying.
"Lets get her into surgery, try to wake her up maybe." The guy shook his head with what looked like false hope. As I run after them into the surgery room I ran next to my body and looked up at the man. "What do you mean maybe?!" I yell as I still hold onto my own hand until we get to the room as the door closes. I sigh and open the door and lean against the wall still trying to except the fact that I'm dead..
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It was midnight at the hemmings house hold, the quietest time really. I just got into bed and started dreaming of what it would be like to actually jump out the window and do it.. to kill myself.
for me, this is the first time I've ever felt suicidal, I mean my only friend was a boy with the longest fringe in the world and everyone called me a walking slut so what the heck? I unwrapped myself out of my sheets and smiled as I walked to my little couch window thingy and opned it wide.
The cold snowy air welcomed me causing goosebumps to race up my arms quickly. "Oh Peter Pan?" I whispered softly as I looked around for a small yellowish gold light to come out of nowhere and knock me in the face. But that just wasn't the truth..
This was the truth... and I was ready to jump, ready to jump in slow motion into the snowy snow bank left to die, When I couldn't tell which pain was from the blood, which pain was from the fall, and which pain was from the words...
As I lift one foot from the cushion and out of the window, I feel so free, like all of my worry, hurt and pain has been lifted from me and I'm flying. I'm smiling so big right now I lay my palm across my eyes and my field of vison as I then jumped pout the window and giggled.
But then I looked around still not taking my hand off my eyes, where's the crash? I thought as I looked around, But then I fekt a calmmy chubby fingered hand. MICHAEL!!! SHIT! I just remembered he was staying over the night because of the all day covers Luke and him were doing together. WHAT AN IDIOT! I WAS SO CLOSE!! OIH MY FUCKING GOD!!
"Michael let me go so I can just die already and get laughed at the grave." I said with aggravation in my tone. I really wanted to die but nOOOOO Michael just has to ruin everything like he always does... Like always.
Michael just shook his head and held onto my hand more tightly. "No way, your too important to m- I mean to your family to die.." He paused to look down to look my pale face. "Please just get up and go back to sleep..."
I rolled my eyes and looked up at him and then my gateway to freedom. "Why would I ever listen to you?" I said as I looked up at him trying to make him let me go. "Let me go Michael!!" I yelled as looked down at the fresh pile of snow. "The devil's calling my name!!!" I said as I tried to get of his grasp.
I start to stop trying to get out of his grasp and calm down as he pushes me back into his arms and cuddles me in my arms. I mean I'm totally against this but who cares right?
"Never scare me like that again..." He mumbled as he ran his sweaty cubby fingers through my cold damp hair. I nodded as I put my arm in his sweater. I started to fall asleep as he then became sweater paws Michael.
That was my favorite Michael.
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I then sit next to myself in the hospital bed flashing back on all the things in my life when I hear familiar voices.
"Yes we're looking for Emma Hemmings, it's her brother and her mother coming to visit." LUKE! MOM!! Their here! They really do care about me! I smile as I run over to the desk and hug my brother but fall right through.
NO!!! COME ON I NEED TO HUG THEM!!! They then disappear into the hallway to go see me. I get off the floor and run back to the hospital bed.
There, I see a sad penguin Hemmings and a sad Liz Hemmings.... I see Luke trying to hold the tears back by holding my favorite beanie. "Oh Luke..." I said I walked over to him.
I look at myself in the bed and then grab onto Luke's hand. Of course, he feels nothing but then looks at our mother.
"When did dad say he could come?" DAD! I haven't seen him in forever..
he never showed up to anything of mine..
Mom shook her head as she looked at Luke with sadness her eyes. "He can't come... he's stuck in Canada for the weekend.." Of course I roll my eyes as I keep looking at mom. "But Jack and Ben said they're coming." THE BOYS I HAVENT SEEN THEM IN A WHILE.
"Did any of the boys say they could come?" My vision then turns to my mother as I look at Luke. CALUM I- no Calum said he didn't love me remember?