Ain't it random

The THOUGHT of you.

Here I go.... again.

Falling in this deep ,black , hole.

All I see is darkness but when I close my eyes I see the possibilities.

Endless possibilities.

I see a world...with you.

How wonderful it could be!
Everything as sweet as candy
And as beautiful as a rose.
To stare into your beautiful eyes, as they sparkle with delight.
Be blessed to see your beautiful smile.
Get intoxicated by the sound of your voice.
But I forget.
I forget that it is not true.
That once again I have my eyes closed,
Refusing to see the reality that's right before me.
JUST OPEN YOUR EYES!

But how could I ,when reality is so dark.
Why can't I be happy just living in the thought of you.