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𝐶ℎ𝑎𝑝𝑡𝑒𝑟 19: 𝑂𝑛𝑒 ℎ𝑒𝑙𝑙 𝑜𝑓 𝑎 𝑛𝑖𝑔ℎ𝑡

⚠️Mention Of Suicide⚠️

We drove for maybe about 15 minutes, past our spot and past all the spots in the town.

He was really taking my mind off of everything, off of life and just me in general.

I've been thinking a lot today, about myself and what I've done.

I've tried to kill myself 3 times now, all has failed.

maybe, that's a sign that I was meant to be here, or it's a sign saying I'm a failure.

I haven't figured that out yet but maybe I will, maybe someday i'll realize.

If that's the day I kill myself or if that's the day I get married.

we will have to see, because it's all a waiting game.

I've forgotten all about last night, well haven't forgotten, more like haven't thought of it.

It was special yet simple. It was meaningful. Both sad and happy.

My thoughts are interrupted by Jaden's car coming to a stop.

"Get out" he simply states. He didn't even let say anything.

I get out of the car and I just take in the surroundings while Jaden grabs something from the trunk.

We are in parking lot, on a hill type thing. It's one of the bigger hills in Tennessee, I some how find myself at such beautiful places.

You never realize how beautiful nature is until, I would say, your broken.

It makes you appreciate 10 times more. The way the sun shines and sets, the way the stars glow at night, the way the wind blows or the way the leaves fall. Nature is quite a spectacular thing, you just have appreciate that, see and understand that.

While I was looking at the sun setting, I feel a hand interlock mine.

I don't even look over, I already can see his cheeky smile, maybe, this could work.

Maybe, we could heal each other, a way no one else could.

Just maybe, the two kids could be a us.

"Beautiful isn't it?" he whispers, I simply nod. It was breathtaking.

He starts walking in front of me, still hand in hand, he was cheeky.

I look in his other hand it there's a case of beer and big blanket. I could already tell, this was definitely going to be an amazing night.

We finally get to a top of a very large hill. The sun was still setting, now causing a pinkish flow throughout the trees, hitting Jaden's face all at the right times. Making him seem perfect in that moment.

I really fell for him.

We finally let's go of my hand, which for some reason, caused me wanting more of his touch.

He takes the big blanket from his other hand and sets the case of beer down and he spreads the blanket out over the ground, covering most of top of the hill area. He then looks at me, with his glimmering blue eye.

The sun hitting just right again, he has a effortless glow.  He someone looks so hot in just a hoodie and sweats. Maybe it was his body or it was his personality but whatever it was it was driving me insane.

I can't deny it anymore.

"Like the view?" he snickers. I roll my eyes and I walk over him, giving him a side hug.

"Thank you. For everything the last month or so" I mumble into his the side of his torso,, shielding my eyes from the sun.

"Your welcome Bee, now beer?" he says, causing a instant smile on my face.