In Your Dreams

Stay 🐯-🐰

(Jungkook's POV) 🐰💜

We had already arrived at school and I noticed that everyone was in a circle, that was weird, but I mean, who isn't. When they noticed us at the entrance the started running towards us and started filling us with questions "Hyung are you actually gay?" "Did you sleep with this slut?" "Hyung have you seen the video?" I felt my eyes drowning from tears, why does this always happen? well... anyways what was I expecting after what Xiumin told me, I already had this coming. How pathetic to think that I was gonna be happier in this place, that I would start fresh in a new city... well sike. Maybe I did something wrong and this is the karma that I deserve.

Oh well, it's back, I have this anxiety problem were my neck itches and I just can't stop scratching it, to the point that I fear I can actually reap my neck. I've had several incidents where I had to go to the hospital because of that since I don't bite my nails I always keep them long and it makes it easier to reap it. It took almost 2 years for me to stop doing that. The therapist told me to try not to undergo so much stress, but look at me going to the most stressful situation I've ever had in my entire life. I decide to run away, hoping this would calm down my nerves, but I know running away from my problems won't solve them, but at least I tried. I ran and ran, not knowing were and always looking down. I am too tired to run so I decide to rest in an alley, they may not sound very safe but at this point, I don't even care anymore.

An hour has past and I'm still here, crying and scratching my neck, over and over, maybe it's already infected, I know I'm lame and pitiful, and that's what I hate the most about myself. My parents don't even care about me anymore, everything it's dark, the only hint of light I've known is thanks to my only friend Yugyeom, and well... Taehyung.

Suddenly I hear someone running, and slowly the steps get stronger and louder.

-KOOKIE!- I hear. Did Taehyung actually come after me?

I could see someone with an obscene blue hair running down the alley, but when he notices that someone was in the alley he quickly goes back to check twice. He looks at me and runs towards me removing my hands from my neck and hugs me tightly ... No one has ever hugged me like this before. And without warning, I hear whimpers, and feel my shoulder wet ... was Taehyung crying?

-I'm so-so sorry ba-ba-baby- he said while crying.

Why is he apologizing? he did nothing wrong, I'm the only one wrong here...  Why is he the one apologizing? 

I don't know what is this feeling in my heart, but I don't want it to go away, I need him more than anyone... And I'm scared ... of depending on him, of losing him, of being alone again ... In an infinite abyss with no way out.

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(Taehyung's POV) 🐯🖤

I finally found him, I feel so relieved... But it breaks my heart seeing him scratching his neck from anxiety. My sister used to do that when she was feeling very stressed, so I hugged her in a way that she couldn't move her arms while whispering to her ear, "I'm here." It always worked. Seeing Jungkook this way reminds me of her, and it makes my heartache... I couldn't hold my tears anymore, so I hugged him like I used to do with my sister.

-I'm so-so sorry ba-ba-baby- I said while crying.

As expected he struggled with me to scratch his neck again, but I kept holding him with all my strength and consoled him until he calmed down. After a while, he fell asleep in my arms, I quickly took him to the hospital where they checked him and disinfected his neck. I can see he does not like to be pitied, but sometimes it's ok to let people in and reach for someone's hand.

I stayed in the hospital, he was sleeping so peacefully... I grabbed his hand and hold it while looking at him, he is so beautiful my eyes can't go off him. I don't like hospitals, being here reminds of my past, and seeing Jungkook like this makes me feel like I'm having a Deja vu. It was getting too late but I couldn't leave him alone. I closed my eyes and fell asleep beside him.

Hi guys, I know this chapter was a bit shorter than the other ones, I'm not feeling like writing more, I'm truly sorry, I promise next chapter would be longer and better. Thanks for understanding and reading this.

Bye mochis, I purple you 💜💜💜💜💜💜💜

here are some BTS memes.

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