Dreamares (Dream + Nightmares) (being rewritten)

A new beginning for us

I was ending my tenth grade year soon and had an amazing boyfriend, a loving daughter and a wonderful parent (my mom), what more could I want, I thought my life was only a little off from perfect, by being a teen mom which wasn't my original plan for myself. It was now February second so it was time to plan my 17th birthday party, 17 to me was the year a girl starts to become a woman. All I really wanted to do for my 17 b-day was have some friends sleep over and go swimming in our amazing pool, not to brag but we have a diving board a waterfall over rocks and a hot-tub,all though I didn't like to get in it much because my body temperature was always hot and as a hot -tube is called, its hot. Oh great that sounds like braging, i'm just an awful person well at least planning my b-day wasn't that hard, it would be a pool party with some of mine and Lucas' friends. As February flew by, I started preparing for all of my 10th grade SAT/ACT' due to being in all AP classes. At the end of February I didn't feel all that great or interested in doing much which in my mind was just a phase of jitters or something that would pass over time.  I decided I wanted to do my party the weekend after my birthday so I wouldn't have to be swimming and trying to have fun on my period (yes even in dreams not everything you wish for comes true), but that weekend it never came. I had chosen to do a live pregnancy test for you-tube just in case, and i'm glad i did because that was the first time i had found out that I was pregnant for the second time before I was even 17. When I found out I sat on my  bathroom floor that connected to my room for about 30 minutes before Lucas came in there to see what I wanted to eat for breakfast, when he saw me on the floor crying he was so confused. "what's wrong babe?",I didn't think I was ready to tell him after I had just found out, what if it was just a false positive, there is no reason for him to worry if it's nothing, right. "oh..h nothing I just was.....blahhhhhh(that's me throwing up for the first time of what i think was morning sickness)" "babe, oh you poor thing , are you okay" he sounded so worried. "we..l..l.. i..f I was okay.. would I be lying on my bath..room floor puking..my..guts out while crying." I said shakily over the toilet not knowing if more of last nights dinner would come up, "I'm sorry it was a stupid question..." he waited to finish. The whole time I was hurled over that toilet he was holding my hair up, "I thought you had been feeling fine, did you eat something that your allergic to?" um.. I didn't know how to respond I knew what was making me throw up I thought, but I couldn't tell him that in about 9 months we might have a 4th addition to our current 3 people family. "hey, I was gonna ask you what you wanted for breakfast, but since you just threw up last nights dinner and maybe lunch... do you want to just eat some toast and be on a BRAT(bananas,rice, apple sauce, and toast) diet until your feeling better." he awkwardly whispered,  " uummm, no I think i'll be fine,um I have a doctors appointment  tomorrow." I quickly lied, "oh, I mean you haven't been feeling off all week, you haven't thrown up until today, when did you even set up an appointment?" he sounded so worried or even confused some would say.  "oh you don't need to worry about my appointment, that's why I didn't tell you" I said a little confused by my words "babe, we have a daughter together and I love you i'll always worry about you, plus I want to make sure you have a good 17th birthday week" he complied "my 17th is one day not a week and I really don't want anyone but inner circle only to know that my birthday is this week, everyone will already know on Wednesday by what i'll be wearing, and how'll you'll be matching me.... oh by the way I already picked out your outfit for my birthday I forgot to tell you" I said skittishly "oh I kinda figured but just out of curiosity what are we wearing." he said swiftly trying to distract me "okay, were wearing our matching hoodies, blue jeans mine will have rips yours won't, and I'm wearing my A&M maroon football jersey while you wear a white A&M football jersey, does that sound good with you because if not I can change them, oh you don't like them, i'll change them.." he gently kissed me to make me stop talking, that gently kiss turned into a more passionate one that I knew I never wanted to stop but then in that moment his mom came in to see what was taking us so long, we quickly pulled apart out of breath. When his mom saw us out of breath on the floor while I was tear stained she looked like she wanted to say something but felt guilty for coming in, "sorry mom, we were just talking, i'm going to breakfast now, ill see ya'll in a minute" he mumbled as  he fled the bathroom. My eyes quickly met hers before Skylar had finally woke up, "i'm gonna go feed her, i'll be down in a little bit to eat.", as she exited the room "i know its not really my business, but it kinda is at the same time, what were you and Lucas talking about, and why were you crying" she softly spoke. I was at a loss for words and didn't know whether or not to tell her about my recent news, "um, he was worried um, about me because, um I wasn't at breakfast, and um when he walked in I was crying on the floor" I spoke frantically.

 After feeding Skylar I headed downstairs to go eat before going to run errands with Lucas, I had made me some eggo waffles ( "let-go my eggo") I had just put on one of my hoodies and a cute pair of jeans when i got the urge to puke again, "hey babe you almost ready to go?" he shouted while walking into my room, I hurled myself over and started to feel breakfast coming up the back of my throat, he rushed over to my bathroom as he heard the gagging sound, he swiftly rushed to me getting my hair out of the way while rubbing my back, "its gonna be okay". When I could finally say something I blurted out " I think i'm pregnant", he looked so taken back by the information I had just said "what.. how.." he spoke out of breath, I smiled " well you see when a mommy and daddy love each other..." I started "okay you can stop I know how, but when did you first make this accusation?" he seemed as if he thought this was a prank for you-tube.  "this morning when I took the test and it came back positive, but then thought that it could just be a false positive and didn't want to worry you about nothing, also I don't really have a doctors apt. tomorrow". That's it, that's how i told him that i was pregnant for the second time and i wasn't even 17 yet, I cant express how i felt as my mind just started to think about everything so fast but past that point i couldn't bare to look in his eyes or let any words fall from my mouth. At that point I hadn't realized to stop the camera from earlier when i took the live test, so i actually had footage of telling him. " what are we going to do?" i whispered while a tear rolled down my cheek he took his hand and rubbed my cheek where the tear once was, he gently kissed me and said, "well figure it out, together, but we'll start by going to the doctor to see if this is real or not, okay?" he waited for my answer but no words left as my mouth was still dry and had the sour taste of throw-up on the tip of my tongue , so I just nodded.